I mean it been going on and building up for so many years that I was.. yaknow... suicidal, I mean I just didnt wanna live; so I just thought, If Im gonna die, if Im gonna kill myself, I should take some drugs yaknow... huh.
I remember when you used to hold me close and say you love me 
Now you actin like a ghost and thats okay, I know Im ugly 
Now Im swervin in the ghost and Im okay, Im gettin money 
Now Im switchin up the coast, get out my way, I stop for nothin 
Give me some time and give me your patience 
Came in the game last month, fuck the game, Im done 
Give me a sign and Im gonna take it 
Whatever way I want, bitch, I get paid up front 
Im gettin mine, so fuck all your placements 
Baby face, Im young, fuck the place Im from 
Dont hit my line and say somethin basic 
If it aint about the money, please dont waste no time 
Lookin off the edge, and Im picturin the fall cause
I dont want to break my legs and have to carry on 
If I carry on, Im gon need some marijuana
Put it in my bong, then I make another song
May as well become a junkie because I felt like a junkie everyday, yaknow? Waking up starving, just forcing myself to eat, yaknow, barfing it back up... its like... Im in pain all the time.