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elo4a9
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Do the cravings ever stop?
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1a
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help-seeking
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At one point in my life I had a pretty serious pill habit. I mostly take kratom now (Twice per day. I’m physically and psychologically addicted). I just always want to get high on something and I can always convince myself to do so.
Let’s say hypothetically I kick it all. Totally clean for three months. How do I avoid the cravings and the temptations down the road? Do they lessen? I’m going to be a doctor soon and I really want to practice medicine without thinking about getting high on all the medicine I’m around.
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dr_algos
| 1 | 0 | 7 |
2020-01-08 05:08:56
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>At one point in my life I had a pretty serious pill habit.<ee> <es>I mostly take kratom now (Twice per day. I’m physically and psychologically addicted).<ee> <es>I just always want to get high on something and I can always convince myself to do so. <ee> <es>Let’s say hypothetically I kick it all.<ee> <es>Totally clean for three months.<ee> <rs>How do I avoid the cravings and the temptations down the road?<re> <rs>Do they lessen?<re> <rs>I’m going to be a doctor soon and I really want to practice medicine without thinking about getting high on all the medicine I’m around.<re>
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How did X make you feel?
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taking kratom
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eirlpy
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Do you guys know anything to do when you are bored? I'm always bored, it sucks.
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0
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help-seeking
| 1 |
I was diagnosed with ADHD. I have a prescription for adderall but I stopped using it. I used to use alcohol as a self diagnose and I have gone back into it again.
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totalfuckwit
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-02 02:07:31
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ADHD
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<rs>Do you guys know anything to do when you are bored?<re> <efs>I'm always bored, it sucks.<efe> <es>I was diagnosed with ADHD.<ee> <es> I have a prescription for adderall but I stopped using it.<ee> <es>I used to use alcohol as a self diagnose and I have gone back into it again.<ee>
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ekxyvp
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Anger probably from being bullied
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1b
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help-seeking
| 2 |
I still carry this weight a decade later. I was bullied and belittled by peers, parents, and teachers. Now I take the slightest or even imagined slights very poorly. I told myself older me would be the champion of younger me, but it seems that results in me flying off the handle every time a retail worker doesn't give a shit about my problem or family members say something snide.
I have so many revenge fantasies. I get mad at people's inflexibility for my honest mistakes. When I was a kid, I thought being kind and nice would convince people to be kind in return. Instead, they saw right through it for the people-pleasing fake act that it was. They saw I was weak and alone.
Now I have so much pain and just as much rage. I'm trying to tell myself there will always be shitty people and everyone experiences them, but I can't help but feel in the moment that if I was a bit louder, a bit more domineering, a bit less tolerant, then they would stop singling me out. And I get louder.
I understand when I'm calm that this is not a rational line of thinking. I'm just so tired of kissing ass to be disrespected and humiliated in return. I'm tired of explaining my position only to be regarded as over-emotional. How do I get past this? I don't want to be this way.
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sorrynotpoly
| 1 | 0 | 14 |
2020-01-06 18:22:43
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Anger
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<es>I still carry this weight a decade later.<ee> <es>I was bullied and belittled by peers, parents, and teachers.<ee> <es>Now I take the slightest or even imagined slights very poorly.<ee> <es>I told myself older me would be the champion of younger me, but it seems that results in me flying off the handle every time a retail worker doesn't give a shit about my problem or family members say something snide.<ee> <es>I have so many revenge fantasies.<ee> <es>I get mad at people's inflexibility for my honest mistakes.<ee> When I was a kid, I thought being kind and nice would convince people to be kind in return. Instead, they saw right through it for the people-pleasing fake act that it was. <efs>They saw I was weak and alone.<efe> <efs>Now I have so much pain and just as much rage.<efe> <efs>I'm trying to tell myself there will always be shitty people and everyone experiences them, but I can't help but feel in the moment that if I was a bit louder, a bit more domineering, a bit less tolerant, then they would stop singling me out.<efe> And I get louder. I understand when I'm calm that this is not a rational line of thinking. <efs>I'm just so tired of kissing ass to be disrespected and humiliated in return.<efe> <efs>I'm tired of explaining my position only to be regarded as over-emotional.<efe> <rs>How do I get past this?<re> <rs>I don't want to be this way.<re>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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emdv31
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A nightmare from 2017 journal entry
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0
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rant
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“I dreamt that I had been taken from my mom. It was a group of men. Men from my church. Sergio was their leader, his brother Gabriel was protecting me from him. I cried because I saw how evil he was.”
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ChloroformDaisy
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-09 18:38:23
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ptsd
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“I dreamt that I had been taken from my mom. It was a group of men. Men from my church. Sergio was their leader, his brother Gabriel was protecting me from him. I cried because I saw how evil he was.”
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eiagbg
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My last new year's wish was to die. I'm still alive so I guess... there's a reason.. right?
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0
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chitchat
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R34LZ
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2019-12-31 23:16:02
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depression
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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suicidal
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eioq3k
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Mindfulness
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1a
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rant
| 1 |
Depressed by the past
Anxious for the future
Content in the moment
Happy
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collateraldamage007
| 1 | 0 | 1 |
2020-01-01 22:17:55
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BPD
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<efs>Depressed by the past<efe> <efs>Anxious for the future <efe> Content in the moment Happy
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What made you feel X ?
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feel depressed
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What can help you overcome X ?
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you feel anxious about your future
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eio3pr
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Well this is new and unpleasant...
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1a
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help-seeking
| 1 |
I'm not one to have panic attacks, but I've had two in the last four days and it's starting to really bother me. I don't know why it's happening. I'm on Ativan for night terrors, which seems to have a secondary effect on decreasing my anxiety, but this week has been rough. Im trying to figure out what it is so I can deal with it. My sleep schedule is definitely weird at the moment, and I'm waking up way too early, so maybe sleep deprivation? I also had some wine last night, and I'm not sure if that could be part of it. Plus my niece died in a terrible accident two months ago and I don't think I'm grieving properly. But I don't really know how or what to do about it. I'm trying to be ok... But I feel so isolated. I'm married but have no friends, and I constantly long to just be around other people to take my mind off of it. I feel awful. I feel like I'm just constantly on edge. How do you guys deal with these feelings?
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LysolPie
| 1 | 0 | 0 |
2020-01-01 21:29:56
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Anxiety
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<es>I'm not one to have panic attacks, but I've had two in the last four days and it's starting to really bother me.<ee> <es>I don't know why it's happening.<ee> <es>I'm on Ativan for night terrors, which seems to have a secondary effect on decreasing my anxiety, but this week has been rough.<ee> Im trying to figure out what it is so I can deal with it. <es>My sleep schedule is definitely weird at the moment, and I'm waking up way too early, so maybe sleep deprivation?<ee> <es>I also had some wine last night, and I'm not sure if that could be part of it.<ee> <es>Plus my niece died in a terrible accident two months ago and I don't think I'm grieving properly.<ee> <es>But I don't really know how or what to do about it.<ee> <efs>I'm trying to be ok... But I feel so isolated.<efe> <efs>I'm married but have no friends, and I constantly long to just be around other people to take my mind off of it.<efe> <efs>I feel awful.<efe> <efs>I feel like I'm just constantly on edge.<efe> <rs>How do you guys deal with these feelings?<re>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eih79x
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Started talking to this girl at the start of the week, been sick to the stomach since
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0
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help-seeking
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Hey guys, I’ve not been actually diagnosed with anxiety yet but both me and my doctor believe that I may have it as it appears to be the cause of many of my IBS flare ups.
The last time I went to the doctors they put me on propranolol to help with headaches that they believed would be caused as a result of anxiety.
I don’t usually talk to girls, however I messaged this one girl on Instagram at the start of the week that I had met at a concert, and with the help of my friends (who are much more experienced than I am) I was able to get her snapchat, however it didn’t go far after there as I pussied out.
The thing is though, is that ever since the first day I messaged this girl, my stomach has been going crazy, I’ve lost appetite, I’ve looked way to much into what I should do when I see this girl at a thing we are both going to tonight. I didn’t even go out last night for the bells as my stomach was going insane. (She wasn’t even going to what I would have went to)
It sorta clicked in finally for me that anxiety was the cause as I woke up this morning feeling perfect, I sorta smiled but then suddenly had a thought of “your going to see the girl tonight at the concert” and my stomach instantly started churning, searing pain and I’m currently sitting on the pan for about 15 minutes.
What should I do in this case, does anyone else get this similar feeling? I don’t want what I believe to be anxiety to stop me from going out and having fun with my life.
I’ve Been taking propranolol, mebeverine, and peppermint caps to help.
Thank you.
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therock565
| 1 | 0 | 3 |
2020-01-01 10:56:50
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Anxiety
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<es>Hey guys, I’ve not been actually diagnosed with anxiety yet but both me and my doctor believe that I may have it as it appears to be the cause of many of my IBS flare ups.<ee> <es>The last time I went to the doctors they put me on propranolol to help with headaches that they believed would be caused as a result of anxiety.<ee> <es>I don’t usually talk to girls, however I messaged this one girl on Instagram at the start of the week that I had met at a concert, and with the help of my friends (who are much more experienced than I am) I was able to get her snapchat, however it didn’t go far after there as I pussied out.<ee> <efs>The thing is though, is that ever since the first day I messaged this girl, my stomach has been going crazy, I’ve lost appetite, I’ve looked way to much into what I should do when I see this girl at a thing we are both going to tonight. I didn’t even go out last night for the bells as my stomach was going insane.<efe> (She wasn’t even going to what I would have went to) <efs>It sorta clicked in finally for me that anxiety was the cause as I woke up this morning feeling perfect, I sorta smiled but then suddenly had a thought of “your going to see the girl tonight at the concert” and my stomach instantly started churning, searing pain and I’m currently sitting on the pan for about 15 minutes.<efe> <rs>What should I do in this case, does anyone else get this similar feeling?<re> <rs>I don’t want what I believe to be anxiety to stop me from going out and having fun with my life.<re> I’ve Been taking propranolol, mebeverine, and peppermint caps to help. Thank you.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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ek0bj1
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Song to Cry to
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0
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chitchat
| 1 |
Hey y’all, Gymnopédies by Erik Satie is such a good song. It evokes a lot of emotion for how simple it seems. It brings me to a place of melancholic nostalgia (if that makes sense). It brings me back to simpler, happier times and it makes me want to cry just writing about it. It’s not like balling sad, but more curling up into a ball, maybe looking at a picture from a good day you had, and just letting tears out thinking about how it’s gone. Anyway I need to stop before I literally lose it so here’s a link to the one I listen to :’). Here’s to the past 🍾
[Gymnopédies- Erik Satie]
(https://youtu.be/_fuIMye31Gw)
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radicalpeanut69
| 2 | 0 | 4 |
2020-01-04 18:27:53
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sad
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Hey y’all, Gymnopédies by Erik Satie is such a good song. It evokes a lot of emotion for how simple it seems. It brings me to a place of melancholic nostalgia (if that makes sense). It brings me back to simpler, happier times and it makes me want to cry just writing about it. It’s not like balling sad, but more curling up into a ball, maybe looking at a picture from a good day you had, and just letting tears out thinking about how it’s gone. Anyway I need to stop before I literally lose it so here’s a link to the one I listen to :’). Here’s to the past 🍾 [Gymnopédies- Erik Satie] (https://youtu.be/_fuIMye31Gw)
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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positive
| true | 0 |
eizc2g
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Am I doing something wrong?
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0
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help-seeking
| 2 |
My boyfriend (20 yrs old) and I (19) have been together for 6 months. We’re currently in a long distance relationship and things are going great! Thing is I do want to improve more to understand/help my boyfriend. Let me be more specific on what I want to improve on
1. Appreciation. I want him to feel more appreciated for who he is. I tell him I love him for everything including ADHD, and thank him for whatever I can point out no matter how big or small. But I feel like I can do better :3
2. Communication. I want to be able to relay my needs such as wanting more compliments and wanting his time without coming off as demanding or guilt-tripping him. I mostly make statements such as,
“I get compliments from other people with the way I act in the relationship, but I rather hear it from you than someone else.”
I owe it to myself to be able to make what I want clear so that it can make life a little simpler for him without me needing to dump unnecessary emotional details :/.
3. Tiredness. I’m aware that people with ADHD have trouble focusing and I totally respect that. Every now and then my boyfriend and I call in Discord for more than 2 hours. He gets tired and unfocused, suggesting we join a group call to add more liveliness
(I’d much want to have our alone times so this would be problematic for me especially since he talks to his friends often in the first place).
What can I do to curb this issue? I ask him a lot of questions about the relationships and how he feels so that may be the culprit but he’s the type to not mention how he feels unless I ask so that is also something I struggle with :/.
Please keep in mind that I’m still learning about ADHD so I might say things that can be offensive and I apologise if that’s the case. I just really want to understand my partner and make things better for the both of us if possible!
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SweepyBean
| 1 | 0 | 4 |
2020-01-02 15:07:45
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ADHD
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<es>My boyfriend (20 yrs old) and I (19) have been together for 6 months.<ee> <es>We’re currently in a long distance relationship and things are going great!<ee> <rs>Thing is I do want to improve more to understand/help my boyfriend.<re> <rs>Let me be more specific on what I want to improve on 1. Appreciation.<re> <rs>I want him to feel more appreciated for who he is.<re> <es>I tell him I love him for everything including ADHD, and thank him for whatever I can point out no matter how big or small.<ee> <Efs>But I feel like I can do better :3<efe> <rs>2. Communication.<re> <rs>I want to be able to relay my needs such as wanting more compliments and wanting his time without coming off as demanding or guilt-tripping him.<re> <es>I mostly make statements such as, “I get compliments from other people with the way I act in the relationship, but I rather hear it from you than someone else.” <ee> <rs>I owe it to myself to be able to make what I want clear so that it can make life a little simpler for him without me needing to dump unnecessary emotional details :/.<re> <rs>3. Tiredness.<re> <es>I’m aware that people with ADHD have trouble focusing and I totally respect that.<ee> <es>Every now and then my boyfriend and I call in Discord for more than 2 hours.<ee> <es>He gets tired and unfocused, suggesting we join a group call to add more liveliness <ee> <es>(I’d much want to have our alone times so this would be problematic for me especially since he talks to his friends often in the first place). <ee> <rs>What can I do to curb this issue?<re> <es>I ask him a lot of questions about the relationships and how he feels so that may be the culprit but he’s the type to not mention how he feels unless I ask so that is also something I struggle with :/.<ee> <es>Please keep in mind that I’m still learning about ADHD so I might say things that can be offensive and I apologise if that’s the case.<ee> <rs>I just really want to understand my partner and make things better for the both of us if possible!<re>
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ey0xax
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I asked to be raped
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1a
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rant
| 1 |
My backstory..... I'm 36f whose been raped, gang raped, passed out raped when I was 18 to 20 years old. I've been doing pretty good but I was in a self destructive path but I never thought I would have done this....
I made a Tinder profile and my description was horrible about what I wanted done to me. I told them I wanted to be slapped and choked... I said rape me with a please. I'm fucking disgusting about what I allowed to happen... Sickened at my actions... The next morning I ran home and curled in a ball and didn't want anyone to touch me. Why did I self destruct in such a manner....
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TheOriginalTomboy
| 1 | 0 | 17 |
2020-02-03 03:52:19
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rapecounseling
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<es>My backstory..... I'm 36f whose been raped, gang raped, passed out raped when I was 18 to 20 years old.<ee> <es>I've been doing pretty good but I was in a self destructive path but I never thought I would have done this....<ee> <es> I made a Tinder profile and my description was horrible about what I wanted done to me.<ee> <es>I told them I wanted to be slapped and choked... I said rape me with a please.<ee> <efs>I'm fucking disgusting about what I allowed to happen...<efe> <efs>Sickened at my actions...<efe> <es>The next morning I ran home and curled in a ball and didn't want anyone to touch me.<ee> Why did I self destruct in such a manner....
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel disgusted about your self destruction
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el4yis
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I'm so excited to get started stopping
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0
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chitchat
| 1 |
I just got ahold of some Suboxone and I am dancing around the kitchen I'm so happy. Not because of the Suboxone really, I'm just so fucking pumped to get back to living my life. I know there is a ton of hard work ahead of me and thinking that a few sublingual strips are going to do the work for me would be straight stupid. HOWEVER, I have a therapist lined up, a detox strategy and a true desire to be done, done DONE with this bullshit. Please everyone send me some good vibes. You're all wonderful beautiful people.
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Glocktopus69420Obama
| 1 | 0 | 6 |
2020-01-07 02:44:11
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>I just got ahold of some Suboxone and I am dancing around the kitchen I'm so happy.<ee> <es>Not because of the Suboxone really, I'm just so fucking pumped to get back to living my life.<ee> <es>I know there is a ton of hard work ahead of me and thinking that a few sublingual strips are going to do the work for me would be straight stupid.<ee> <es>HOWEVER, I have a therapist lined up, a detox strategy and a true desire to be done, done DONE with this bullshit. <ee> <rs>Please everyone send me some good vibes.<re> You're all wonderful beautiful people.
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what made your life miserable
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How did X make you feel?
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suboxone
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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how you plan to do the detox
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ep0smj
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Boyfriend is addicted and I don't know how to handle it anymore
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1b
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rant
| 1 |
My boyfriend is addicted to both cocaine and weed. He's trying to kick off (I don't know if that's the right way to say it?) so he uses as little as possible. Because of this he feels sick and depressed all the time and can't find the strength to look for a job and thus he has no money.
This means that I have to pay for everything: rent, bills, food and his drugs. Not paying for his drugs is not an option I think because he'll get into more trouble. He already has to go to court soon because of dealing drugs.
I don't have a large income so I spend more than I receive and I'm almost broke.
I'm trying to be as supportive as I can. He does his best not to use every day and not to take his anger and frustrations out on me. He also finally accepted to go to rehab but he can only go in 1 month. I don't know how to deal with this situation anymore and I don't know what I can do to help him.
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Fruitboerinneke
| 1 | 0 | 22 |
2020-01-15 10:48:29
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addiction
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<es>My boyfriend is addicted to both cocaine and weed.<ee> <es>He's trying to kick off (I don't know if that's the right way to say it?) so he uses as little as possible.<ee> <efs>Because of this he feels sick and depressed all the time and can't find the strength to look for a job and thus he has no money.<efe> <es>This means that I have to pay for everything: rent, bills, food and his drugs.<ee> <es>Not paying for his drugs is not an option I think because he'll get into more trouble.<ee> <es>He already has to go to court soon because of dealing drugs.<ee> <es>I don't have a large income so I spend more than I receive and I'm almost broke.<ee> <es>I'm trying to be as supportive as I can.<ee> <es>He does his best not to use every day and not to take his anger and frustrations out on me.<ee> <es>He also finally accepted to go to rehab but he can only go in 1 month.<ee> <es>I don't know how to deal with this situation anymore and I don't know what I can do to help him.<ee>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are unable to fund your boyfriend
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ejzebt
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Job interview...ready to put in 2 week notice?
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0
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help-seeking
| 1 |
Monday after work I have a job interview, obviously I'm freaking out! But my current place of employment has taken such a huge toll on my mental health. I've posted on here before about how its caused me to have suicidal thoughts and extreme panic attacks. Anyways, my boss has been on a major power trip lately and I'm hoping to god I can March right into his office hand him my 2 week notice with a big smile on my face and a little "FU".
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bellczar
| 2 | 0 | 11 |
2020-01-04 17:22:30
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socialanxiety
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<es>Monday after work I have a job interview, obviously I'm freaking out!<ee> <es>But my current place of employment has taken such a huge toll on my mental health.<ee> <es>I've posted on here before about how its caused me to have suicidal thoughts and extreme panic attacks.<ee> Anyways, my boss has been on a major power trip lately and I'm hoping to god I can March right into his office hand him my 2 week notice with a big smile on my face and a little "FU".
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How did X make you feel?
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the current job
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel anxious about the interview
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evta37
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Someone please help
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1b
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help-seeking
| 1 |
I'm 25 and my bf is 31, he has hit me multiple times and even choked slammed me. He spat on my face and also just now spit on my face calling me a child. I live with him (different state) and i just bought us a ticket to go back to my house. If i say i dont want to be with him, he might cancel his ticket and make me cancel mine and our sons. Our son is only 7 months. Please can someone help? Idk what to do!!! I'm crying and im scared. I do not want to be with him anymore but i cant tell him that or he'll beat me. My plane ticket is for Saturday. Please help :(
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abusedandhurting
| 1 | 0 | 8 |
2020-01-29 21:06:12
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domesticviolence
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<es>I'm 25 and my bf is 31, he has hit me multiple times and even choked slammed me.<ee> <es>He spat on my face and also just now spit on my face calling me a child.<ee> <es>I live with him (different state) and i just bought us a ticket to go back to my house.<ee> <es>If i say i dont want to be with him, he might cancel his ticket and make me cancel mine and our sons.<ee> <es>Our son is only 7 months.<ee> <rs>Please can someone help?<re> <es>Idk what to do!!!<ee> <efs>I'm crying and im scared.<efe> <rs>I do not want to be with him anymore but i cant tell him that or he'll beat me.<re> <es>My plane ticket is for Saturday.<ee> <rs>Please help :(<re>
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ei8i38
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My sisters friend keeps staring at me
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1b
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rant
| 1 |
My sister has her friend at our house, and I keep noticing that she stares at me a lot. Maybe she just doesn’t realize she doing it, but it makes me so uncomfortable and she stares at me with a judgmental expression. Again, she probably just does it unconsciously, but my insecure self feels very stressed out and exposed
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introverted-plant
| 1 | 0 | 6 |
2019-12-31 20:39:23
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socialanxiety
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My sister has her friend at our house, and I keep noticing that she stares at me a lot. <es>Maybe she just doesn’t realize she doing it, but it makes me so uncomfortable and she stares at me with a judgmental expression.<ee> <efs>Again, she probably just does it unconsciously, but my insecure self feels very stressed out and exposed<efe>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you feel stressed
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel stressed out and exposed
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requirement mask not clear
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ez162s
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Distanced myself from everyone and now i'm considering contacting my ex best friend
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0
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help-seeking
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Hi, I'm 17 and have struggled with depression and anxiety for quite a while, currently i only have very few online friends and one irl friend. I used to have this friend who I had been very close to since I was in kindergaten and at 14 we stopped talking over a fight because of our parents not getting along. It was mostly me breaking down from my mom's pressure and finally backing away from her. At the time my mom complimented me saying that now I would find real friends but I haven't found anyone with who I've had a good connection with and I always feel out of place whevener i talk to my one irl friend. She seems to have moved on since she already has a lot of friends and seems happy but I've seen her like some posts about lost friendships and stuff that may be related to our situation she wasn't always the best person either but neither was I. I'm scared of reaching out to her and have her talk badly of me since i'ts been three years since we've talked and it might sound very creepy of me to still think about it and I'm also very scared of being humiliated. Should I reach out? If yes what should I say to not sound like a desperate creepy stalker?
PS: I've discovered reddit through other stories shared on social media so I ask if this post gets any attention please not to share it in other platforms since I'm scared she might see it. Also sorry for any mistakes english is not my first language.
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felis_catus_1
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2020-02-05 01:30:17
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getting_over_it
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<es>Hi, I'm 17 and have struggled with depression and anxiety for quite a while, currently i only have very few online friends and one irl friend.<ee> <es>I used to have this friend who I had been very close to since I was in kindergaten and at 14 we stopped talking over a fight because of our parents not getting along.<ee> <es>It was mostly me breaking down from my mom's pressure and finally backing away from her.<ee> <efs>At the time my mom complimented me saying that now I would find real friends but I haven't found anyone with who I've had a good connection with and I always feel out of place whevener i talk to my one irl friend.<efe> <es>She seems to have moved on since she already has a lot of friends and seems happy but I've seen her like some posts about lost friendships and stuff that may be related to our situation she wasn't always the best person either but neither was I.<ee> <efs>I'm scared of reaching out to her and have her talk badly of me since i'ts been three years since we've talked and it might sound very creepy of me to still think about it and I'm also very scared of being humiliated.<efe> <rs>Should I reach out?<re> <rs>If yes what should I say to not sound like a desperate creepy stalker?<re> PS: I've discovered reddit through other stories shared on social media so I ask if this post gets any attention please not to share it in other platforms since I'm scared she might see it. Also sorry for any mistakes english is not my first language.
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eshtti
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I just need help I don't really know.
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1a
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help-seeking
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In October I've been feeling so well I started to go to college, meet a girl, I've been full of self-love motivation and confidence always in my life could pick myself up like a fucking rocky movie. But lately, I don't have that power anymore I feel like I'm drowning there's no motivation or confidence left in me the girl I was with for 3 months now completely screwed me over, I've lost a bit of weight gotten pale like there's no more life left in me so much stress I can't even, usually music helped me through tough times I live and breathe it since I was kid and even that ain't helping anymore. There's more to all of this but I just feel lonely and there's legit nothing I can do. I was never this soft but I legit cry every fucking two days now. I don't know these problems, are nothing compared to some on this thread but it's the first thing I clicked and if anyone can help, please...
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ThrowMeAwayProfile
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2020-01-22 20:40:22
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selfhelp
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<es>In October I've been feeling so well I started to go to college, meet a girl, I've been full of self-love motivation and confidence always in my life could pick myself up like a fucking rocky movie.<ee> <efs>But lately, I don't have that power anymore I feel like I'm drowning there's no motivation or confidence left in me.<efe> <es>the girl I was with for 3 months now completely screwed me over.<ee> <es>I've lost a bit of weight gotten pale like there's no more life left in me so much stress I can't even, usually music helped me through tough times I live and breathe it since I was kid and even that ain't helping anymore.<ee> <efs>There's more to all of this but I just feel lonely and there's legit nothing I can do.<efe> <es>I was never this soft but I legit cry every fucking two days now.<ee> <rs>I don't know these problems, are nothing compared to some on this thread but it's the first thing I clicked and if anyone can help, please...<re>
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what will help you get over the relationship
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ei8jo1
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Desperate for help... looking for suggestions
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1a
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help-seeking
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I’m 27 y/o & my life has been absolutely decimated by social anxiety. I have been in therapy since high school (saw a therapist in middle school briefly) & have tried over 10 different meds, TMS (for anxiety and depression), and have done psychedelic therapy these last few months. I do not know what to do anymore. I have basically no friends. I’ve tried CBT and exposure therapy but nothing has worked. I’ve been suicidal in the past and am worried these thoughts might come back if I don’t find something that works.
Does anyone have any suggestions? I’m desperate. DMs are welcome.
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SlussyMussel
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2019-12-31 20:42:39
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socialanxiety
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<es>I’m 27 y/o & my life has been absolutely decimated by social anxiety.<ee> <es>I have been in therapy since high school (saw a therapist in middle school briefly) &<ee> <es>have tried over 10 different meds, TMS (for anxiety and depression), and have done psychedelic therapy these last few months.<ee> <es>I do not know what to do anymore.<ee> <es>I have basically no friends.<ee> <es>I’ve tried CBT and exposure therapy but nothing has worked.<ee> <es>I’ve been suicidal in the past and am worried these thoughts might come back if I don’t find something that works.<ee> <rs>Does anyone have any suggestions?<re> I’m desperate. DMs are welcome.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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your social anxiety
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what suggestions would help you with social anxiety
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er9mck
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Getting my self to move
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1a
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rant
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I leave for a couple month trip next week and I have no motivation to clean my room or pack my stuff. I feel so low and unmotivated. I hate that I’m going to travel alone and this is how I’m feeling before I leave
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cassiiiee18
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2020-01-20 06:54:35
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selfhelp
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<es>I leave for a couple month trip next week and I have no motivation to clean my room or pack my stuff.<ee> <efs>I feel so low and unmotivated.<efe> <efs>I hate that I’m going to travel alone and this is how I’m feeling before I leave<efe>
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why you have no motivation to pack your stuff
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you have no motivation to pack for the trip
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ei9ela
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New Years makes me feel terrible. I feel like I’ve only gone backwards. (Trigger Warning: Venting)
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1a
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rant
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This was hands down the worst year of my life. In March I started having pretty bad ptsd symptoms. I went to therapy for the first time in May, where I was diagnosed with PTSD. I got worse and worse, and was completely debilitated by my illness. I started meds, had a psychotic breakdown, and completed an intensive therapy program. I dropped out of school, left my job, and moved back home because I couldn’t take care of myself. I broke up with my soulmate during a manic episode, and then spent months repairing the relationship so that we could be okay. I’ve come a long way as of now, but I have so much more to go.
I woke up this morning so depressed I couldn’t get out of bed. I had ptsd dreams for hours last night, and was too afraid to fall back asleep this morning.
I can’t help but see all these people talk about how much they’ve grown in 2019. I guess I’ve grown too, but honestly I feel like I’ve devolved into this barely-functioning human being. I am so. Much. Worse. Than how I started this year out. It’s weighing on me today.
I know progress is relative, and all of this had to happen in order to get me better in the long run, but I am just so tired.
I’m so tired. I feel like crawling out of my skin today.
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throwaway0706199
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2019-12-31 21:51:26
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ptsd
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<es>This was hands down the worst year of my life.<ee> <es>In March I started having pretty bad ptsd symptoms.<ee> <es>I went to therapy for the first time in May, where I was diagnosed with PTSD.<ee> <efs>I got worse and worse, and was completely debilitated by my illness.<efe> <efs>I started meds, had a psychotic breakdown, and completed an intensive therapy program.<efe> <efs>I dropped out of school, left my job, and moved back home because I couldn’t take care of myself.<efe> <efs>I broke up with my soulmate during a manic episode, and then spent months repairing the relationship so that we could be okay.<efe> I’ve come a long way as of now, but I have so much more to go. <efs>I woke up this morning so depressed I couldn’t get out of bed.<efe> <es>I had ptsd dreams for hours last night, and was too afraid to fall back asleep this morning. <ee> I can’t help but see all these people talk about how much they’ve grown in 2019. <efs>I guess I’ve grown too, but honestly I feel like I’ve devolved into this barely-functioning human being.<efe> <efs>I am so.<efe> Much.<efe> <efs>Worse.<efe> <efs>Than how I started this year out.<efe> <efs>It’s weighing on me today. <efe> <efs>I know progress is relative, and all of this had to happen in order to get me better in the long run, but I am just so tired. <efe> <efs>I’m so tired.<efe> <efs>I feel like crawling out of my skin today.<efe>
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you feel much worse than the start of the year
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ejoanw
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I want to die, help
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help-seeking
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I feel like I keep getting the bad cards over and over and it doesn’t stop. I’m tired of always getting the shorter end of the stick and I can’t do it anymore. Here is a mini life story, maybe you can offer some advice. When I was 5 I was molested for a year, for my entire life i’ve been severely bullied to the point the cops needed to get involved because my life was at risk. When i was 9 I was molested at a waterpark. First suicide attempt at 10. My father mentally abused me for the next 6 years. When i was 12 i got an eating disorder that almost killed me and i still struggle with today. Came out to my mom and she didn’t accept it and tries to change me to this day. 14-17 I danced with drugs to take away some pain. Raped on my 16th birthday. Day before heart was broken by a boy i loved for 5 years. 2nd suicide attempt. Mom threatened to leave my dad and put the decision on me. My papa died at 16, i moved in with my aunt and uncle because my parents gave up. Over the summer i came back to see my parents and it triggered me into a depression and everything spiraled out of control. I went back to my aunt and uncle went to a Psychiatrist, got diagnosed with BPD, Clinical depression, and clinical anxiety. I went on prozac, had a horrible reaction. Had to be hospitalized, found out i have an auto immune disorder and am probably gonna die in 10 years, aunt and uncle became mentally abusive and they sent me back to lethbridge, with my parents. I dropped out of high school, it’s too stressful which makes me sad because earlier this year i was a 95+ student and have always been, i was also traning to be come a professional golfer and i injured my wrist so that’s not gonna happen. Now i live 5 houses away from the guy that ruined me, i have a therapist and she told me my life is way too complicated and she doesn’t know if she can help, i was TOLD by another therapist i’m faking the rape. i can’t leave my house because people in lethbridge send me death threats and i’m afraid of getting jumped or killed. I’m tired of pushing, life sucks, i hate this world. i’m 17 and my life is ruined.
I have to spend possibly 30 years working through all of that, i just can’t see how it’s worth it.
EDIT: Told instead of good
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asadcookie
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2020-01-04 00:08:37
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sad
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<efs>I feel like I keep getting the bad cards over and over and it doesn’t stop.<efe> <efs>I’m tired of always getting the shorter end of the stick and I can’t do it anymore.<efe> Here is a mini life story, maybe you can offer some advice. <es>When I was 5 I was molested for a year, for my entire life i’ve been severely bullied to the point the cops needed to get involved because my life was at risk.<ee> <es>When i was 9 I was molested at a waterpark.<ee> <es>First suicide attempt at 10.<ee> <es>My father mentally abused me for the next 6 years.<ee> <es>When i was 12 i got an eating disorder that almost killed me and i still struggle with today.<ee> <es>Came out to my mom and she didn’t accept it and tries to change me to this day.<ee> <es>14-17 I danced with drugs to take away some pain.<ee> <es>Raped on my 16th birthday.<ee> <es>Day before heart was broken by a boy i loved for 5 years.<ee> <es>2nd suicide attempt.<ee> <es>Mom threatened to leave my dad and put the decision on me.<ee> <es>My papa died at 16, i moved in with my aunt and uncle because my parents gave up.<ee> <es>Over the summer i came back to see my parents and it triggered me into a depression and everything spiraled out of control.<ee> <es>I went back to my aunt and uncle went to a Psychiatrist, got diagnosed with BPD, Clinical depression, and clinical anxiety.<ee> <es>I went on prozac, had a horrible reaction.<ee> <es>Had to be hospitalized, found out i have an auto immune disorder and am probably gonna die in 10 years, aunt and uncle became mentally abusive and they sent me back to lethbridge, with my parents.<ee> <es>I dropped out of high school, it’s too stressful which makes me sad because earlier this year i was a 95+ student and have always been, i was also traning to be come a professional golfer and i injured my wrist so that’s not gonna happen.<ee> <es>Now i live 5 houses away from the guy that ruined me, i have a therapist and she told me my life is way too complicated and she doesn’t know if she can help, i was TOLD by another therapist i’m faking the rape.<ee> <efs>i can’t leave my house because people in lethbridge send me death threats and i’m afraid of getting jumped or killed.<efe> <efs>I’m tired of pushing, life sucks, i hate this world.<efe> <es>i’m 17 and my life is ruined.<ee> <es>I have to spend possibly 30 years working through all of that, i just can’t see how it’s worth it.<ee> EDIT: Told instead of good
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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so many bad instances have happened in your life
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ezm9fb
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A letter to my rapist (trigger warnings)
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1b
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rant
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I was 18. Young, naive and vulnerable. You saw me on a bench and picked me out. You were the most manipulative person I’ve met in my life, and you knew I was an easy target. Someone to prey on, to take advantage of with no consequences. I regret everyday that I didn’t take the revenge and justice that I so rightly deserved against. You first said you didn’t even have sex with me, and then somehow victimised yourself? You disgust me. I remember that night. Don’t even try to fucking tell me you don’t. When you put your hand around your neck and hesitated, I knew you knew you fucked up, you knew I couldn’t have consented and you started to try everything in your power to make sure I couldn’t fight back, go against you. I’ll never forget passing out on that floor, and waking up to your face. Pushing me against the wall, and desperately trying to make me invite you round so that you could justify your actions, like the calculating, cruel sadistic psychopath you are. You grabbed me to make sure I wouldn’t pass out in front of other people. And yet... somehow in your fucked up mind you thought your actions were justified. I’ve never been in so much pain in all my life. That’s what drives me insane every night. The fact that you used my body to get you off, while I had to endure every fucking moment you put me through. And yet somehow that’s my fault? Fuck you and your ego. You raped me. You destroyed me. I just wanted to die and it’s all because of your fucking actions. I hope you kill yourself, because you’d be doing the world a favour.
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Framergamer
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2020-02-06 03:45:40
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rapecounseling
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<es>I was 18.<ee><es> Young, naive and vulnerable.<ee> <es>You saw me on a bench and picked me out.<ee> <es>You were the most manipulative person I’ve met in my life, and you knew I was an easy target.<ee> <es>Someone to prey on, to take advantage of with no consequences.<ee> <efs>I regret everyday that I didn’t take the revenge and justice that I so rightly deserved against.<efe> <es>You first said you didn’t even have sex with me, and then somehow victimised yourself?<ee> <efs>You disgust me.<efe> <es>I remember that night.<ee> Don’t even try to fucking tell me you don’t. <es>When you put your hand around your neck and hesitated, I knew you knew you fucked up, you knew I couldn’t have consented and you started to try everything in your power to make sure I couldn’t fight back, go against you.<ee> <es>I’ll never forget passing out on that floor, and waking up to your face.<ee> <es>Pushing me against the wall, and desperately trying to make me invite you round so that you could justify your actions, like the calculating, cruel sadistic psychopath you are.<ee> <es>You grabbed me to make sure I wouldn’t pass out in front of other people.<ee> <es>And yet... somehow in your fucked up mind you thought your actions were justified.<ee> <es>I’ve never been in so much pain in all my life.<ee> <es>That’s what drives me insane every night.<ee> <es>The fact that you used my body to get you off, while I had to endure every fucking moment you put me through.<ee> <es>And yet somehow that’s my fault?<ee> <es>Fuck you and your ego.<ee> <es>You raped me.<ee> <es>You destroyed me.<ee> <efs>I just wanted to die and it’s all because of your fucking actions.<efe> <efs>I hope you kill yourself, because you’d be doing the world a favour.<efe>
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you regret not taking action against your rapist
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eo72jo
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First Meeting Tonight
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1a
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help-seeking
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Am attending my first AA meeting tonight- any advice? I feel that I have lost control of my life and am desperate to start a happier future.
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skipper90nf
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2020-01-13 17:17:13
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<rs>Am attending my first AA meeting tonight- any advice?<re> <efs>I feel that I have lost control of my life and am desperate to start a happier future.<efe>
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that you have lost control of your life
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how you feel about your life
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eqqvt4
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Worst breakup ever.
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1b
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help-seeking
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So, let me just start this off by saying that i’m completely in the wrong in this situation, i should not have done what i did. So, let’s start the night off. (20M) here, and me and my girlfriend (20F) have been together for about 5 months now. Everythings been amazing, couple small arguments here or there, nothing big. I uber about an hour away to hangout at the bar with my girlfriend (now ex) and her friend. Everything was amazing, fun, and then we ended up having her friend drive us back to my house. Once here though, a verbal nuke blew up. She was quite drunk, and i was pretty tipsy. My ex, started a huge argument over non-sensical things, and was overall saying some really fucked up things to me, so obviously i argued back. Things about my anxiety and little jokes about just what i've done in the past and who i am. Let me say this as well, neither of us are in the best shape mentally. Me, i have crippling anxiety that weighs upon every one of my relationships. She? Has some very deep rooted issues from her past, without getting into too much detail. So, the fight. We were talking like normal, and i was talking to her about the hood, and how she needs to leave that kind of life behind her.
This started her to start screaming at me, getting in my face and threatening my life. (She has “connections” if you want to call it. But basically what was said was “you wanna talk about the hood, i’ll call someone from da hood right now and they’ll kill ya” That’s a threat, and she has threatened my life before. I won’t be threatened in my own household, nor have someone in my face threatening me. So while she was screaming at me while being 2 inches from my face threatening my life, i simply pushed her shoulder back to get her away from my face. She took a step and a half backwards, it’s not like i Hulk Hogan threw her. I’m a tiny guy, it was a tiny push. But still, a push is a push. Im heartbroken. Defeated. Ashamed. Was this warranted? I know you should never push a women, or even lay a finger on them with negative intentions. But a death threat, is a death threat. Said by any gender. And she definitely has the means to have someone killed, she’s not some prissy white girl. Without going into too much detail. So of course, i took the threat very seriously. If anyone has any advice or anything, please. I know i’m wrong, so please don’t jump down my throat in the comments, I've heard enough terrible things past couple of days. Anyone have advice about this situation? I mean, like i want to move forward with this, i see a future with this girl so i don't want to throw it all away. But what are my options? We're still talking, about how we fix it and stuff, but i just need some outside advice.
TL;DR girlfriend was screaming in my face, i pushed back, we ended it, now what do i do?
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YungestBongs
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2020-01-19 03:04:21
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<es> So, let me just start this off by saying that i’m completely in the wrong in this situation, i should not have done what i did.<ee> So, let’s start the night off. <es>(20M) here, and me and my girlfriend (20F) have been together for about 5 months now.<ee> <es>Everythings been amazing, couple small arguments here or there, nothing big.<ee> <es>I uber about an hour away to hangout at the bar with my girlfriend (now ex) and her friend.<ee> <es>Everything was amazing, fun, and then we ended up having her friend drive us back to my house.<ee> <es>Once here though, a verbal nuke blew up.<ee> <es>She was quite drunk, and i was pretty tipsy.<ee> <es>My ex, started a huge argument over non-sensical things, and was overall saying some really fucked up things to me, so obviously i argued back.<ee> <es>Things about my anxiety and little jokes about just what i've done in the past and who i am.<ee> <es>Let me say this as well, neither of us are in the best shape mentally.<ee> <es>Me, i have crippling anxiety that weighs upon every one of my relationships.<ee> <es>She? Has some very deep rooted issues from her past, without getting into too much detail.<ee> <es>So, the fight.<ee> <es>We were talking like normal, and i was talking to her about the hood, and how she needs to leave that kind of life behind her.<ee> <es>This started her to start screaming at me, getting in my face and threatening my life.<ee> <es>(She has “connections” if you want to call it.<ee> <es>But basically what was said was “you wanna talk about the hood, i’ll call someone from da hood right now and they’ll kill ya” That’s a threat, and she has threatened my life before.<ee> <es>I won’t be threatened in my own household, nor have someone in my face threatening me.<ee> <es>So while she was screaming at me while being 2 inches from my face threatening my life, i simply pushed her shoulder back to get her away from my face.<ee> <es>She took a step and a half backwards, it’s not like i Hulk Hogan threw her.<ee> <es>I’m a tiny guy, it was a tiny push.<ee> <es>But still, a push is a push.<ee> <efs>Im heartbroken.<efe> <efs>Defeated.<efe> <efs>Ashamed.<efe> <rs>Was this warranted?<re> <es>I know you should never push a women, or even lay a finger on them with negative intentions.<ee> <es>But a death threat, is a death threat.<ee> Said by any gender. <es>And she definitely has the means to have someone killed, she’s not some prissy white girl.<ee> Without going into too much detail. <es>So of course, i took the threat very seriously.<ee> <rs>If anyone has any advice or anything, please.<re> <rs>I know i’m wrong, so please don’t jump down my throat in the comments, I've heard enough terrible things past couple of days.<re> <rs>Anyone have advice about this situation?<re> <rs>I mean, like i want to move forward with this, i see a future with this girl so i don't want to throw it all away.<re> <rs>But what are my options?<re> <rs>We're still talking, about how we fix it and stuff, but i just need some outside advice.<re> <es>TL;DR girlfriend was screaming in my face, i pushed back, we ended it.<ee> <rs>now what do i do?<re>
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ekallt
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Finally made my appointment for the clinic :)
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help-seeking
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I made the call today and set up my appointment for the methadone clinic. Yes, methadone is my choice. Methadone works well for me. I'm very excited. Even if I'm on it for the rest of my life, I'll be happy not using dope anymore. I don't care if I am still dependent on something, as long as it's the lesser of two evils.
Any advice? Anything I should know about the process? I'm worried they won't give me enough to even get me well and I have very long work days that I'm worried about.
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bagzplz
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2020-01-05 08:54:12
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>I made the call today and set up my appointment for the methadone clinic.<ee> <es>Yes, methadone is my choice.<ee> <es>Methadone works well for me.<ee> <efs>I'm very excited.<efe> <rs>Even if I'm on it for the rest of my life, I'll be happy not using dope anymore.<re> <rs>I don't care if I am still dependent on something, as long as it's the lesser of two evils.<re> <rs>Any advice?<re> <rs>Anything I should know about the process?<re> <efs>I'm worried they won't give me enough to even get me well and I have very long work days that I'm worried about.<efe>
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methadone
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eq0bh7
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Going off suboxone
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chitchat
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Wish me luck. I want to do this. Have a slow taper schedule written by my doctor. I'm excited to be off all opiates for the first time in years.
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scumster_dive
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2020-01-17 13:24:12
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OpiatesRecovery
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Wish me luck. I want to do this. Have a slow taper schedule written by my doctor. I'm excited to be off all opiates for the first time in years.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eo5zu2
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Help/resources for defusion
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1a
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help-seeking
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I've been trying to work on defusion as homework from my psych but I've been struggling despite the information he has provided me with; an information sheet he has written, and also talking about it in sessions.
I think part of the problem is, I have been having trouble articulating what exactly i'm struggling with, it feels like I get sucked in by the negative thought and spiral/fight it which I know is opposite to what I am meant to be accomplishing
I've been trying to look at other resources to see if other techniques/explanations might work better for me, and was just wondering if anyone had any recommendations or suggestions
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CatsandTeaandBooks
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2020-01-13 16:01:03
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getting_over_it
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<es>I've been trying to work on defusion as homework from my psych but I've been struggling despite the information he has provided me with; an information sheet he has written, and also talking about it in sessions.<ee> <efs>I think part of the problem is, I have been having trouble articulating what exactly i'm struggling with, it feels like I get sucked in by the negative thought and spiral/fight it which I know is opposite to what I am meant to be accomplishing <efe> <rs>I've been trying to look at other resources to see if other techniques/explanations might work better for me, and was just wondering if anyone had any recommendations or suggestions<re>
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elao26
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Dating advice?
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0
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help-seeking
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Hey Reddit, don’t really post on here much, but I’m having feeling for a current math addict, we’ve only been seeing each other 2-3 weeks now, but I didn’t know he was on it when it stared, but he offered it to me when I came over, and I thought it was like a one time thing, but he got boxes of needles and I can tell he’s been doing it more than just this time, so I didn’t want him to feel like I was being rude so i took a like(no needles for me), and I’m not wanting to get addicted to it, so I guess my question is; is me trying to talk to him about getting help and quitting a waste of my time? I really like the guy and he’s sweet to me, but I know that the addiction comes first in most of these situations, and if I do have a shot at convincing him, how should I approach it and not upset him? (I also see he sells some, so I don’t know how far that means he’s gone..) thanks for the advice in advance. Sorry if this is badly written, he’s asleep beside me and trying not to wake him up
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uplatealways11
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2020-01-07 12:02:38
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addiction
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<es>Hey Reddit, don’t really post on here much, but I’m having feeling for a current math addict,<ee> <es>we’ve only been seeing each other 2-3 weeks now,<ee> <es>but I didn’t know he was on it when it stared,<ee> <es>but he offered it to me when I came over, and I thought it was like a one time thing,<ee> <es>but he got boxes of needles and I can tell he’s been doing it more than just this time,<ee> <es>so I didn’t want him to feel like I was being rude so i took a like(no needles for me), <ee> <es>and I’m not wanting to get addicted to it,<ee> <rs>so I guess my question is; is me trying to talk to him about getting help and quitting a waste of my time?<re> <rs>I really like the guy and he’s sweet to me, but I know that the addiction comes first in most of these situations, and if I do have a shot at convincing him, how should I approach it and not upset him?<re> <es>(I also see he sells some, so I don’t know how far that means he’s gone..)<ee> thanks for the advice in advance. Sorry if this is badly written, he’s asleep beside me and trying not to wake him up
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your boyfriend's meth addiction
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eik68z
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Second day of Vyvanse for ADHD, why am I not getting any energy boost?
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0
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help-seeking
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Hey guys, so I have gone to a ton of appointments over the past year or so to fix what has been an issue with my energy. Constantly lethargic. Cannot concentrate etc. I got a sleep study, blood tests, the works, basically.
Recently my doctor suggested I see a neuropsych and after a lengthy evaluation I got diagnosed with ADHD and put on 30mg Vyvanse.
Here's what went down:
-The night before the first day, I took Magnesium L-Threonate (I actually just wanted to try it out). I ended up sleeping until 1:20pm. I then saw my prescription was filled for Vyvanse, so I went and picked it up. At about 2:30pm, I took 30mg as directed. I know it's super late, but I basically said 'fuck it' and told myself I would deal with it.
So here's how it goes on day 1:
I take the pill, then quickly eat a nice breakfast. Lots of Broccoli and banana in a shake, coconut oil toast, avocado toast with curry, and white tea with freshly squeezed lemon. Basically, a very healthy and filling breakfast.
I wait. One hour, two hours, and I start to worry because I don't feel any energy boost. My focus seems to get better, and I feel more sharp. I little bit of 'wired' feeling comes in, but it is minuscule. Barely noticeable. That being said, more time goes by, and lo and behold, not only am I not feeling an energy or the euphoria people talk about for first time users, but I feel lethargic and sleepy, all day. Worst part? I do not sleep that night. Like some sort of shitty double whammy.
So I analyze what may have gone wrong, and with research and I find that vitamin C is no bueno for Vyvanse (this guy had this whole post on how he literally found out his vyvanse worked after 2 months when he stopped taking multivitamins with his pill). Guess what has lots of Vitamin C? Broccoli, and freshly squeezed lemon juice. Ok. So I tell myself 'ah there it is, I'll cut out both of those tomorrow and even only eat half a banana.' I also learn protein is good so I decide to take a protein shake on top of that the next morning.
I pull an all nighter. Because I couldn't sleep. I decide to then have the modified breakfast, and then take the 30mg pill. This time at 6 am, to ensure I have no problems sleeping tonight.
It has now been 3 hours and a half, and I feel focused, but sleepy. Does anyone know why?
Now here's some maybe useful info: I'm 6+ foot tall, and around 200 pounds. So could it be my dosage?
Fun, maybe useful fact: coffee not only makes me sleepy, but it makes me very depressed and anxious. The great news is, Vyvanse actually is not doing that! Better yet, my restless leg syndrome seems to have calmed down (dopamine stuff is happening in my brain I'm guessing).
Other useful info: I have a twin. He takes 40mg (also prescribed) and it works normally for him. Energy boost, etc.
So could it be I need a higher dose? Did I just get unlucky taking vitamin c on the first day and all nighter the second, and I'm just not testing it properly? Is it something else? Thoughts?
I would appreciate it if y'all could help me out. This diagnosis means a lot to me. I've struggled with chronic underachievement and I can really feel it help my focus. I'm someone who really loves getting work done and learning, and it's been really hard to have my body completely reject that lifestyle for me. The energy side of it is just downright weird. Especially since it's not an issue with a twin with pretty much the same parameters as me.
Thanks guys. Glad subs like this exist to reach out.
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Internetcowboy
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2020-01-01 16:31:25
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ADHD
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<es>Hey guys, so I have gone to a ton of appointments over the past year or so to fix what has been an issue with my energy.<ee> <efs>Constantly lethargic.<efe> <efs>Cannot concentrate etc.<efe> <es>I got a sleep study, blood tests, the works, basically.<ee> <es>Recently my doctor suggested I see a neuropsych and after a lengthy evaluation I got diagnosed with ADHD and put on 30mg Vyvanse.<ee> <es>Here's what went down: -The night before the first day, I took Magnesium L-Threonate (I actually just wanted to try it out). I ended up sleeping until 1:20pm.<ee> <es>I then saw my prescription was filled for Vyvanse, so I went and picked it up.<ee> <es>At about 2:30pm, I took 30mg as directed.<ee> <es>I know it's super late, but I basically said 'fuck it' and told myself I would deal with it.<ee> <es>So here's how it goes on day 1: I take the pill, then quickly eat a nice breakfast.<ee> <es>Lots of Broccoli and banana in a shake, coconut oil toast, avocado toast with curry, and white tea with freshly squeezed lemon.<ee> <es>Basically, a very healthy and filling breakfast.<ee> <es>I wait.<ee> <efs>One hour, two hours, and I start to worry because I don't feel any energy boost.<efe> <efs>My focus seems to get better, and I feel more sharp.<efe> <efs>I little bit of 'wired' feeling comes in, but it is minuscule.<efe> <efs>Barely noticeable.<efe> <efs>That being said, more time goes by, and lo and behold, not only am I not feeling an energy or the euphoria people talk about for first time users, but I feel lethargic and sleepy, all day.<efe> <es>Worst part?<ee> <efs>I do not sleep that night.<efe> Like some sort of shitty double whammy. <es>So I analyze what may have gone wrong, and with research and I find that vitamin C is no bueno for Vyvanse (this guy had this whole post on how he literally found out his vyvanse worked after 2 months when he stopped taking multivitamins with his pill).<ee> <es>Guess what has lots of Vitamin C?<ee> <es>Broccoli, and freshly squeezed lemon juice.<ee> Ok. <es>So I tell myself 'ah there it is, I'll cut out both of those tomorrow and even only eat half a banana.'<ee> <es>I also learn protein is good so I decide to take a protein shake on top of that the next morning.<ee> <es>I pull an all nighter.<ee> <es>Because I couldn't sleep.<ee> <es>I decide to then have the modified breakfast, and then take the 30mg pill.<ee> <es>This time at 6 am, to ensure I have no problems sleeping tonight.<ee> <efs>It has now been 3 hours and a half, and I feel focused, but sleepy.<efe> <rs>Does anyone know why?<re> <es>Now here's some maybe useful info: I'm 6+ foot tall, and around 200 pounds.<ee> <es>So could it be my dosage?<ee> <es>Fun, maybe useful fact: coffee not only makes me sleepy, but it makes me very depressed and anxious.<ee> <es>The great news is, Vyvanse actually is not doing that!<ee> <es>Better yet, my restless leg syndrome seems to have calmed down (dopamine stuff is happening in my brain I'm guessing).<ee> <es>Other useful info: I have a twin.<ee> <es>He takes 40mg (also prescribed) and it works normally for him.<ee> <es>Energy boost, etc.<ee> <rs>So could it be I need a higher dose?<re> <rs>Did I just get unlucky taking vitamin c on the first day and all nighter the second, and I'm just not testing it properly?<re> <rs>Is it something else?<re> <rs>Thoughts?<re> <rs>I would appreciate it if y'all could help me out.<re> <es>This diagnosis means a lot to me.<ee> <efs>I've struggled with chronic underachievement and I can really feel it help my focus.<efe> <es>I'm someone who really loves getting work done and learning, and it's been really hard to have my body completely reject that lifestyle for me.<ee> <es>The energy side of it is just downright weird.<ee> <es>Especially since it's not an issue with a twin with pretty much the same parameters as me.<ee> Thanks guys. Glad subs like this exist to reach out.
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ek0lg5
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Meme
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chitchat
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Koekiez
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2020-01-04 18:47:53
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sad
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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f00idz
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Dealing with insecurity
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help-seeking
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Hey.
I've suffered from depression my entire life, it's something I can manage at this point, with medication and professional help (something I'm currently without, as my counselor is on leave for a few months, but she'll be back soon), but recently I've had a completely new issue: insecurity.
I'm writing the rest of this for context, you can probably skip to the TLDR if you get sick of the rambling. Names have been changed for privacy.
Insecurity is a relatively new thing for me, I was hurt in a past relationship when my partner at the time, Sarah, was spending a lot of time with another guy, of course, I thought it was fine, but then we break up for completely separate reasons and within a week she was together with him, and that hurt. But still, I wasn't feeling insecure then, just very badly depressed. For further context, this all happened during the biggest depressive spiral of my life, where I had to return home due to myself feeling extremely suicidal leaving Sarah in another city 200 miles away.
I've moved on a lot from then, I'm a new relationship now, with a girl who to be honest I'm completely in love with, and she tells me she feels the same. Everything has been great, but we had an argument before I had to leave for a month for university. This is where the insecurity started, I'm just constantly terrified that I'll lose her, to someone better, or to just not wanting me anymore.
I've spoken about this argument with my counselor, and she tells me to communicate how I was feeling about it with Alice, something I did, and it helped, to an extent. We're now at a point where we are so past the argument, but the insecurity has remained.
I'm being as open as possible with her about it, ensuring that she knows that none of it is her fault, or based upon any of her actions, and she's being so supportive about it which helps, I'd go completely crazy if I was dealing with this alone. She understands, but I feel so guilty for feeling this way about her. She's a saint, and these thoughts are an insult to her, and I hate it.
I'm super struggling because of it right now. Are there anyways to feel less insecure? Or is this just something I'm stuck with? Like I'm not asking for a quick fix or anything, at this point I know those don't work, but are there any things that I could work on?
Thanks in advance for any replies. :)
TLDR: a super insecure guy asking for help.
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The-Woe-Of-Ophelia
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2020-02-06 22:37:47
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getting_over_it
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Hey. <es>I've suffered from depression my entire life, it's something I can manage at this point, with medication and professional help (something I'm currently without, as my counselor is on leave for a few months, but she'll be back soon), but recently I've had a completely new issue: insecurity.<ee> I'm writing the rest of this for context, you can probably skip to the TLDR if you get sick of the rambling. Names have been changed for privacy. <es>Insecurity is a relatively new thing for me, I was hurt in a past relationship when my partner at the time, Sarah, was spending a lot of time with another guy, of course.<ee> <es>I thought it was fine, but then we break up for completely separate reasons and within a week she was together with him, and that hurt.<ee> <es>But still, I wasn't feeling insecure then, just very badly depressed.<ee> <es>For further context, this all happened during the biggest depressive spiral of my life, where I had to return home due to myself feeling extremely suicidal leaving Sarah in another city 200 miles away.<ee> <es>I've moved on a lot from then, I'm a new relationship now, with a girl who to be honest I'm completely in love with, and she tells me she feels the same.<ee> <es>Everything has been great, but we had an argument before I had to leave for a month for university.<ee> <efs>This is where the insecurity started, I'm just constantly terrified that I'll lose her, to someone better, or to just not wanting me anymore.<efe> <es>I've spoken about this argument with my counselor, and she tells me to communicate how I was feeling about it with Alice, something I did, and it helped, to an extent.<ee> <es>We're now at a point where we are so past the argument, but the insecurity has remained.<ee> <es>I'm being as open as possible with her about it, ensuring that she knows that none of it is her fault, or based upon any of her actions, and she's being so supportive about it which helps, I'd go completely crazy if I was dealing with this alone.<ee> <efs>She understands, but I feel so guilty for feeling this way about her.<efe> <efs>She's a saint, and these thoughts are an insult to her, and I hate it.<efe> <es>I'm super struggling because of it right now.<ee> <rs>Are there anyways to feel less insecure?<re> <rs>Or is this just something I'm stuck with?<re> <rs>Like I'm not asking for a quick fix or anything, at this point I know those don't work, but are there any things that I could work on?<re> Thanks in advance for any replies. :) TLDR: a super insecure guy asking for help.
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ej2pc5
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I screwed myself over
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1a
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rant
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I transfered to a new community college last semster. For this school, I need to submit my transcripts from my previous schools or I can't get into the classes that I need to. I was able to get away with not doing this last semster because the classes I took were general education now I need major specific classes. I put off doing this now my new semester starts on the 6 th and I haven't signed up for classes and I can't until I get my transcripts submitted. To do this I need a counseling appointment and the only one available is on the 13 the. I don't know what to do and I have myself so much for putting myself in this position. I'm 22 and I just want to be done with school and I find myself avoiding what I need to do.
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greengrapesredgrapes
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2020-01-02 19:16:52
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ADHD
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<es>I transfered to a new community college last semester.<ee> <es>For this school, I need to submit my transcripts from my previous schools or I can't get into the classes that I need to.<ee> <es>I was able to get away with not doing this last semster because the classes I took were general education now I need major specific classes.<ee> <es>I put off doing this now my new semester starts on the 6 th and I haven't signed up for classes and I can't until I get my transcripts submitted.<ee> <es>To do this I need a counseling appointment and the only one available is on the 13 the.<ee> <es>I don't know what to do and I have myself so much for putting myself in this position.<ee> <es>I'm 22 and I just want to be done with school and I find myself avoiding what I need to do.<ee>
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ekudh9
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Our house almost burned down, now anything related to fire triggers anxiety, even the word itself scares me. I also can't help being so paranoid. How can I cope?
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1a
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help-seeking
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This happened the night of new years eve 2019. We live in a slum like part of city, so the houses here are made of light materials and most of the time are stuck to each other. Our neighbor had a cooking mishap that caused the fire, their house is right behind ours. The light materials made it spread easier.
That time I was in the house, I could already smell smoke but since it was new years eve I shrugged it off as bbq smoke or from the fireworks. Time passed and the smell got stronger, I went out and saw faint dark smoke. Noticed people outside were gathering in front of our gate, saw me and yelled "there's fire!".
I rushed back in, yelled at my relatives to get out quickly. Grabbed my bag that had all my important documents in it, and this was the hard part; I had to evacuate 8 of my cats. They were all in the second floor. I havent gotten the money to buy enough carriers yet so I started to panic. How do I do this. Eventually I found a way, it involved carrying a medium size cage outside of the house and carry the cats one by one outside. I got so scared thinking what if I don't have enough time to get them all out. But thank God I managed. One window got slightly burned but other than that the firemen came in time to put out the fire that was starting to creep on our house.
It was a very scary experience I still haven't gotten over it. Everything they say about house fires were real, the smoke will kill you first rather than the fire itself. Breathing was hard, eyes hurt. Not that I doubt those facts, it's just so scary to go through.
When the house was declared safe to enter, we had no energy left to do a countdown so we tried to sleep. I couldn't sleep. The smell was still there. The fireworks didn't help either. I never knew I could be so scared of fireworks, I hated it. I kept thinking what if fireworks could cause another fire? What if fire happens when were all asleep? I can't.
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The incident also made me fear leaving the house. I'm scared no one will save my pets. I also got scared of being in the house alone. Scared of sudden loud noises, smell of smoke from any source. Scared of the word "fire". Sometimes I remember the incident and I start smelling smoke when it's not really there. Sometimes I hear sirens, sometimes I see smoke that isn't there and start to panic.
I'm scared I'm going crazy. I'd love to leave (we rent) and find a safer place, but right now I can't afford it. And scared because this isnt something we can control. We've never trusted the people who started the fire. They used to steal electricity from us by using a jumper, which could have also ended up in a really bad fire.
Sorry I had to tell the whole story, I feel like getting it off my chest. I'm so scared. I hate my dumbass neighbors. :(
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pidgeonjail
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2020-01-06 13:49:18
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ptsd
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<es>Our house almost burned down, now anything related to fire triggers anxiety, even the word itself scares me.<ee> <efs>I also can't help being so paranoid.<efe> <rs>How can I cope?<re> <es>This happened the night of new years eve 2019.<ee> <es>We live in a slum like part of city, so the houses here are made of light materials and most of the time are stuck to each other.<ee> <es>Our neighbor had a cooking mishap that caused the fire, their house is right behind ours.<ee> <es>The light materials made it spread easier.<ee> <es>That time I was in the house, I could already smell smoke but since it was new years eve I shrugged it off as bbq smoke or from the fireworks.<ee> <es>Time passed and the smell got stronger, I went out and saw faint dark smoke.<ee> <es>Noticed people outside were gathering in front of our gate, saw me and yelled "there's fire!". <ee> <es>I rushed back in, yelled at my relatives to get out quickly.<ee> <es>Grabbed my bag that had all my important documents in it, and this was the hard part; I had to evacuate 8 of my cats.<ee> <es>They were all in the second floor.<ee> <es>I havent gotten the money to buy enough carriers yet so I started to panic.<ee> <es>How do I do this.<ee> <es>Eventually I found a way, it involved carrying a medium size cage outside of the house and carry the cats one by one outside.<ee> <efs>I got so scared thinking what if I don't have enough time to get them all out.<efe> <es>But thank God I managed.<ee> <es>One window got slightly burned but other than that the firemen came in time to put out the fire that was starting to creep on our house.<ee> <efs>It was a very scary experience I still haven't gotten over it.<efe> <es>Everything they say about house fires were real, the smoke will kill you first rather than the fire itself.<ee> <es>Breathing was hard, eyes hurt.<ee> <efs>Not that I doubt those facts, it's just so scary to go through.<efe> <es>When the house was declared safe to enter, we had no energy left to do a countdown so we tried to sleep.<ee> <efs>I couldn't sleep.<efe> <es>The smell was still there.<ee> <es>The fireworks didn't help either.<ee> <es>I never knew I could be so scared of fireworks, I hated it.<ee> <efs>I kept thinking what if fireworks could cause another fire?<efe> <efs>What if fire happens when were all asleep? I can't.<efe> ------- <efs>The incident also made me fear leaving the house.<efe> <efs>I'm scared no one will save my pets. I also got scared of being in the house alone.<efe> <efs>Scared of sudden loud noises, smell of smoke from any source.<efe> <efs>Scared of the word "fire".<efe> <efs>Sometimes I remember the incident and I start smelling smoke when it's not really there.<efe> <efs>Sometimes I hear sirens, sometimes I see smoke that isn't there and start to panic.<efe> <efs>I'm scared I'm going crazy.<efe> <rs>I'd love to leave (we rent) and find a safer place, but right now I can't afford it.<re> <efs>And scared because this isnt something we can control.<efe> <es>We've never trusted the people who started the fire.<ee> <es>They used to steal electricity from us by using a jumper, which could have also ended up in a really bad fire.<ee> Sorry I had to tell the whole story, I feel like getting it off my chest. <efs>I'm so scared.<efe> <efs>I hate my dumbass neighbors. :(<efe>
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enr8e1
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Panic and anxiety disorder, I suffer too much
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1a
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rant
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It's unbearable
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Innominato1579
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2020-01-12 18:32:22
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mentalillness
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<es>Panic and anxiety disorder, I suffer too much<ee> <efs>It's unbearable<efe>
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what causes the panic attacks
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how you feel about the panic attacks
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the panic and anxiety attacks are unbearable
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erebly
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I can’t find my fucking headphones and I’m about to explode.
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1a
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rant
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I had them 10 minutes ago and now I have no idea where the fuck they are. I’m so pissed I feel like smashing my fucking head into a wall.
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peg-me-mommy
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2020-01-20 15:05:10
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Anger
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<es>I can’t find my fucking headphones and I’m about to explode.<ee> <es>I had them 10 minutes ago and now I have no idea where the fuck they are.<ee> <efs>I’m so pissed I feel like smashing my fucking head into a wall.<efe>
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you are unable to find your headphones
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eicf3e
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DAE else reassure others that it’s totally okay if they do something specific and then have a total meltdown about it in private?
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1a
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survey
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my partner has the habit of checking in with me when he does minor things because i have severe separation anxiety so when something comes up and ruins our plans it take a toll on me and makes me go crazy in the head as if he left and he’s never coming back. but because i wanna be a good girlfriend i try my best to tell him im gonna be fine when he has something to do, even when i know im gonna spend the rest of the day crying and stuck in bed
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bleucarebear
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2020-01-01 02:00:38
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BPD
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<rs>DAE else reassure others that it’s totally okay if they do something specific and then have a total meltdown about it in private?<re> <es>my partner has the habit of checking in with me when he does minor things because i have severe separation anxiety<ee> <efs>so when something comes up and ruins our plans it take a toll on me and makes me go crazy in the head as if he left and he’s never coming back.<efe> <es>but because i wanna be a good girlfriend i try my best to tell him im gonna be fine when he has something to do, even when i know im gonna spend the rest of the day crying and stuck in bed<ee>
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eib5y0
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I am at a new year's eve party and I want to cry.
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0
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rant
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I am having a panic attack without any reason, I don't to be here anymore.
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Julexx
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2020-01-01 00:12:49
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depression
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<es>I am having a panic attack without any reason, I don't to be here anymore.<ee>
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why you were having a panic attack
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the panic attack
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you have a panic attack and don't want to be in the party
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f7pew6
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Too many domestic violence relationships
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help-seeking
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Someone asked me once if I ever considered that I might be the reason that I have had three relationships that ended in domestic violence. That comment haunts me. I am stubborn and I am not physically capable of defending myself. The person who said it was the second guy who hit me. He wanted me to think that it was my fault. Is he right?
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Icantdance-whensober
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2020-02-22 07:33:21
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domesticviolence
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<es>Someone asked me once if I ever considered that I might be the reason that I have had three relationships that ended in domestic violence.<ee> <efs>That comment haunts me. <efe> <es> I am stubborn and I am not physically capable of defending myself. <ee> <es>The person who said it was the second guy who hit me.<ee> <es>He wanted me to think that it was my fault.<ee> <rs>Is he right?<re>
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your past relationships
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how the relationships made you feel
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what would help you
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eodvbw
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School troubles
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1a
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help-seeking
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Hello, I hope I’m in the right subreddit. I am currently a highschool student dealing with major depression and anxiety issues. I recently (this past year) transferred to a private academy to help cope with these issues.
Recently my mental state has deteriorated. It happened so fast and so intensely that I’m left not just an emotional mess, but I’ve also lost almost all motivation. I can’t go to school despite my love for it because of this. My family want to transfer me back into homeschool, and I’m honestly so lost.
I love my current school to death. I’ve made friends, have great teachers, and a really amazing staff. I enjoy my classes when I have the capacity to be fully present for them, but with my mental health falling I’ve been able to attend less and less.
The question I have, is should I agree to the transfer? Like I said, I love my school, but I’m also at a point where I’m unable to attend properly and keep up with my peers. I’m really torn, any help would be amazing.
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avaline-cant-handle
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2020-01-14 01:20:13
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selfhelp
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Hello, I hope I’m in the right subreddit. <es>I am currently a highschool student dealing with major depression and anxiety issues.<ee> <es>I recently (this past year) transferred to a private academy to help cope with these issues.<ee> <es>Recently my mental state has deteriorated.<ee> <efs>It happened so fast and so intensely that I’m left not just an emotional mess, but I’ve also lost almost all motivation.<efe> <es>I can’t go to school despite my love for it because of this.<ee> <efs>My family want to transfer me back into homeschool, and I’m honestly so lost. <efe> <es>I love my current school to death.<ee> <es>I’ve made friends, have great teachers, and a really amazing staff.<ee> <es>I enjoy my classes when I have the capacity to be fully present for them, but with my mental health falling I’ve been able to attend less and less. <ee> <rs>The question I have, is should I agree to the transfer?<re> <es>Like I said, I love my school, but I’m also at a point where I’m unable to attend properly and keep up with my peers.<ee> <efs>I’m really torn, any help would be amazing.<efe>
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elp5s2
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Can't Sleep
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How are things in your neck of the woods?
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WeLostTheSkyline
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2020-01-08 06:49:35
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>Can't Sleep<ee> How are things in your neck of the woods?
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why you can't sleep
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not being able to sleep
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you are unable to sleep
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eq3qye
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Day two coming clean
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rant
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I've never been dope sick in my life. I've come close but it's never a matter of finances (unfortunately) it's just waiting on people. I was the most responsible drug addict when it came to my drug. Never truly ran out. Never had to scrounge change. Now, Im starting to get it a tad bit more. My eyes are running, my muscles ache, constant goosebumps, stomach pains. This sucks, but it's doable. I don't know. I'm posting here for myself. Get it all out so it doesn't hold me down.
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Tacotaxitactical
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2020-01-17 17:50:21
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>Day two coming clean<ee> <es>I've never been dope sick in my life.<ee> <es>I've come close but it's never a matter of finances (unfortunately) it's just waiting on people.<ee> <es>I was the most responsible drug addict when it came to my drug.<ee> <es>Never truly ran out.<ee> <es>Never had to scrounge change.<ee> <es>Now, Im starting to get it a tad bit more.<ee> <efs>My eyes are running, my muscles ache, constant goosebumps, stomach pains.<efe> <efs>This sucks, but it's doable.<efe> I don't know. I'm posting here for myself. Get it all out so it doesn't hold me down.
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are having withdrawl symptoms
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en1dgi
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A functioning alcoholic
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1a
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help-seeking
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I first started drinking in high school, carried on immensley through college. Got married and had children and didn’t drink for that 15 yrs of marriage. Bad break up, picked up where I left off. Married an an alcoholic, went up from there. Divorced, sober for a few years and remarried, drinking again and hiding it. Want to stop but this time its hard. Suggestions? AA doesn’t work for me
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hohobaha12
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2020-01-11 02:25:12
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<es>I first started drinking in high school, carried on immensley through college.<ee> <es>Got married and had children and didn’t drink for that 15 yrs of marriage.<ee> <es>Bad break up, picked up where I left off.<ee> <es>Married an an alcoholic, went up from there.<ee> <es>Divorced, sober for a few years and remarried, drinking again and hiding it.<ee> <rs>Want to stop but this time its hard.<re> <rs>Suggestions?<re> <es> AA doesn’t work for me<ee>
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breakup
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ei9rhe
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New Years Resolution: clean my room
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chitchat
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I know it will make me feel better, even if just for a few minutes, but I don’t have the energy to do it. I still have a suitcase opened from a vacation back in April. I hope I’ll be able to do this ONE thing for 2020.
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judgejudystan
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2019-12-31 22:20:29
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depression
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<rs>New Years Resolution: clean my room<re> I know it will make me feel better, even if just for a few minutes, but I don’t have the energy to do it. I still have a suitcase opened from a vacation back in April. I hope I’ll be able to do this ONE thing for 2020.
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to clean your room
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to clean your room
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ej8ih2
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Dying to self harm! Help? Plz?
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0
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survey
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ToonlinkFTW890
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2020-01-03 02:14:10
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selfharm
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<es>Dying to self harm!<ee> Help? Plz?
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why you want to self harm
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self harm
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you feel like doing self harm
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evvxt4
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I am a concerned neighbor and former abuse victim who doesn't know what to do.
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1b
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help-seeking
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I have lived in this apartment for nearly 3 months now. I have noticed now and again that one of my neighbors will yell every so often but it has never been as bad as it got today. I was asleep and woke up to the sound of screaming and loud thumping. I could clearly hear words and phrases, a woman's voice yelling "why did you do it" and calling someone terrible names, and it lasted for maybe 10 minutes. I ended up having flashbacks and hyperventilating but later encountered someone from that household outside. I have been informed the mom is bipolar and her behavior is treated by this person as just an unfortunate thing to live with. I feel incredibly distressed partly because of my own experiences and partly because I feel a young child is being abused in a household where the only other adult is complacent. I don't know what to do, if there even is anything I can or should do. But considering I come from a home where screaming and throwing furniture (chairs!) was routine, I feel an incredibly and overwhelming sense of needing to do something. Also this is my first Reddit post, sorry if I got anything wrong.
tl;dr -- I overheard an adult being abusive to a child and I would like advice on what to do. No one ever helped me so I don't have any firsthand experience with this. Part of me feels it's not my business but overall I am extremely distressed (thanks PTSD) and I want to do the right thing.
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furtivequest
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2020-01-30 00:02:45
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<es>I have lived in this apartment for nearly 3 months now.<ee> <es>I have noticed now and again that one of my neighbors will yell every so often but it has never been as bad as it got today.<ee> <es>I was asleep and woke up to the sound of screaming and loud thumping.<ee> <es>I could clearly hear words and phrases, a woman's voice yelling "why did you do it" and calling someone terrible names, and it lasted for maybe 10 minutes.<ee> <efs>I ended up having flashbacks and hyperventilating but later encountered someone from that household outside.<efe> <es>I have been informed the mom is bipolar and her behavior is treated by this person as just an unfortunate thing to live with.<ee> <efs>I feel incredibly distressed partly because of my own experiences and partly because I feel a young child is being abused in a household where the only other adult is complacent.<efe> <es>I don't know what to do, if there even is anything I can or should do.<ee> <rs>But considering I come from a home where screaming and throwing furniture (chairs!) was routine, I feel an incredibly and overwhelming sense of needing to do something.<re> Also this is my first Reddit post, sorry if I got anything wrong. <rs>tl;dr -- I overheard an adult being abusive to a child and I would like advice on what to do.<re> <es>No one ever helped me so I don't have any firsthand experience with this.<ee> <es>Part of me feels it's not my business but overall I am extremely distressed (thanks PTSD) and I want to do the right thing.<ee>
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ekojqt
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2019-12-29 00:00:00
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1b
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I’m at home getting ready for school but something already feels off, our morning texts aren’t the same, she was already up and didn’t text me, that’s something she doesn’t do she usually always texts me. I get a feeling in my stomach but I don’t want to believe it, I tell her “I’m going to school I’ll see you there I love you!” I get nothing back. I get to school and she’s already at first period. I’m already thinking about how I’m gonna react when she tells me we need to move on. We go to our regular classes but she ignores me and talks to everyone else in front of me. I think other people get the hint which what she’s going to do..guys try to hit on her but to me it’s not over just yet so I tell them to “fuck off” or I punch them. Math comes and this is where we part ways, I’m in my math class and just waiting for my day to get even worse. My teacher tell us that we are goin to go to a different class today and the class we go to is the class she is in. I see her and she sees me but doesn’t care. She goes back to talking to another guy and it kills me on the inside. She’s talking to a guy named Brad, a guy I know very well and i know he already gets the hint because he starts touching her. She doesn’t care what he’s doing, if anything she likes it. I feel my whole body just heat up, my head wants to explode, I can’t breath anymore, my heart is just killing me, I feel so emotional inside. I get up and I yell at him “get your fucking hands of my girlfriend” he looks at me the crest in his eyes as if he just saw his mother die in front of his eyes, she looks at me and just stares, I get kicked out of the class and I wait for her by her car, the bell rings and everyone starts coming out, the parking lot gets empty each minute until it’s only my car, her car, and brads car. The feeling in my stomach comes back to me but again I just try to shrug it off telling myself “it isn’t true”, I walk inside to go and find her, I get into the classroom and he bag and his bag is still there, I wait for them but quickly regret that after they come back, there she is all over brad laughing, smiling, kissing his cheek, she has hickies all over her and him as well, again I feel so empty and I finally say something “what the hell are you doing?” Brad runs fearing for his life, she just stands there in shock as if she thought I was just going to leave..I told her to tell me “what the fuck was going on” she is speechless, that feeling I’ve been avoiding all day overcomes me and I burst out in tears, the lies, the memories, the late night texts, the car drives, the karaokes, the date nights, the funny pictures, the sleepovers, the modern warfare, the call of duty, all the my happiness is taken away. I finally come to make sense that she’s been cheating on me the whole time with this Brad. My body hurts, I feel like I’m dying, all I want to do is go on a rampage. She finally says some thing to me after not talking to me all day, “I’m sorry”, I rush out of the classroom all the way to my car, I can’t believe this is happening I see Brad, he sees me too because he tries even harder to open his car door. I walk over to where he is at and I confront him and ask him “why would you do this to me” he is shaking so bad he can’t give me an answer so I yell and I punch his window breaking it...he tells me “you’re have to pay for that” I look at him and knock him out... I walk to my car and go through all our texts trying to find out where I went wrong..I find nothing. My blood rushes through my whole body as I think about the words she told me last night “You’re the only one I want, the only one for me, I would never cheat on you, I would never end our relationship” I burst into tears again “what did I do, what went wrong “ I ask myself, I see her walking out, she sees Brad finally getting up and walks over to him, I get out of my car and walk towards her, “they both see me and just stand still” my vision is so blurry I can barley see their reactions, I get face to face with her and call it quits, she looks suprised and starts crying telling me “I’m so sorry please forgive me I want no one else expect you please don’t do this” I look at her and just walk away. Heartbroken, betrayed, these are the feelings I have as I start to drive away, bison still blurry I don’t see the car on the other side of the road. The last thing I hear is a car horn, a crash, and a voice telling me “everything is going to be okay” as I open my eyes one last time I see her running over to me screaming, you would think I felt happy and relieved but I didn’t, all I felt was even more mad, mad about the fact that I would die with she being the last person I saw.
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NAILKMKARAZ
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2020-01-06 04:07:16
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<es>I’m at home getting ready for school but something already feels off, our morning texts aren’t the same, she was already up and didn’t text me, that’s something she doesn’t do she usually always texts me.<ee> <efs>I get a feeling in my stomach but I don’t want to believe it, I tell her “I’m going to school I’ll see you there I love you!” I get nothing back.<efe> <es>I get to school and she’s already at first period.<ee> <es>I’m already thinking about how I’m gonna react when she tells me we need to move on.<ee> <es>We go to our regular classes but she ignores me and talks to everyone else in front of me.<ee> <es>I think other people get the hint which what she’s going to do..guys try to hit on her but to me it’s not over just yet so I tell them to “fuck off” or I punch them.<ee> <es>Math comes and this is where we part ways, I’m in my math class and just waiting for my day to get even worse.<ee> <es>My teacher tell us that we are goin to go to a different class today and the class we go to is the class she is in.<ee> <es>I see her and she sees me but doesn’t care.<ee> <efs>She goes back to talking to another guy and it kills me on the inside.<efe> <es>She’s talking to a guy named Brad, a guy I know very well and i know he already gets the hint because he starts touching her.<ee> <es>She doesn’t care what he’s doing, if anything she likes it.<ee> <efs>I feel my whole body just heat up, my head wants to explode, I can’t breath anymore, my heart is just killing me, I feel so emotional inside.<efe> <es>I get up and I yell at him “get your fucking hands of my girlfriend” he looks at me the crest in his eyes as if he just saw his mother die in front of his eyes, she looks at me and just stares, I get kicked out of the class and I wait for her by her car, the bell rings and everyone starts coming out, the parking lot gets empty each minute until it’s only my car, her car, and brads car.<ee> <es>The feeling in my stomach comes back to me but again I just try to shrug it off telling myself “it isn’t true”, I walk inside to go and find her, I get into the classroom and he bag and his bag is still there, I wait for them but quickly regret that after they come back, there she is all over brad laughing, smiling, kissing his cheek, she has hickies all over her and him as well, again I feel so empty and I finally say something “what the hell are you doing?”<ee> <es>Brad runs fearing for his life, she just stands there in shock as if she thought I was just going to leave..I told her to tell me “what the fuck was going on” she is speechless, that feeling I’ve been avoiding all day overcomes me and I burst out in tears, the lies, the memories, the late night texts, the car drives, the karaokes, the date nights, the funny pictures, the sleepovers, the modern warfare, the call of duty, all the my happiness is taken away.<ee> <es>I finally come to make sense that she’s been cheating on me the whole time with this Brad.<ee> <efs>My body hurts, I feel like I’m dying, all I want to do is go on a rampage.<efe> <es>She finally says some thing to me after not talking to me all day, “I’m sorry”, I rush out of the classroom all the way to my car, I can’t believe this is happening I see Brad, he sees me too because he tries even harder to open his car door.<ee> <es>I walk over to where he is at and I confront him and ask him “why would you do this to me” he is shaking so bad he can’t give me an answer so I yell and I punch his window breaking it...he tells me “you’re have to pay for that” I look at him and knock him out... I walk to my car and go through all our texts trying to find out where I went wrong..I find nothing.<ee> <es>My blood rushes through my whole body as I think about the words she told me last night “You’re the only one I want, the only one for me, I would never cheat on you, I would never end our relationship” I burst into tears again “what did I do, what went wrong “ I ask myself, I see her walking out, she sees Brad finally getting up and walks over to him, I get out of my car and walk towards her, “they both see me and just stand still” my vision is so blurry I can barley see their reactions, I get face to face with her and call it quits, she looks suprised and starts crying telling me “I’m so sorry please forgive me I want no one else expect you please don’t do this” I look at her and just walk away.<ee> <efs>Heartbroken, betrayed, these are the feelings I have as I start to drive away, bison still blurry I don’t see the car on the other side of the road.<efe> <efs>The last thing I hear is a car horn, a crash, and a voice telling me “everything is going to be okay” as I open my eyes one last time I see her running over to me screaming, you would think I felt happy and relieved but I didn’t, all I felt was even more mad, mad about the fact that I would die with she being the last person I saw.<efe>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
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that your girlfriend cheated on you
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ei7ehd
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You know how sometimes you're so suffocated by a certain place and need to get out and change scenes for a while?
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I feel that way with life.
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dolphin_96
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2019-12-31 19:16:37
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depression
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I feel that way with life.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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title has the event
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f3tn2n
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How to learn to be kind to myself?
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1a
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help-seeking
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Hey all. So I'm in my last semester of college and I'm covered by my disability center. If I ever struggle with depression like hell, I can email the disability employee assigned to me and she can help me communicate to my professor. Extended deadlines, excused absences for missed classes, etc. Last semester, the dean of my school excused me from 2 weeks of classes cause he was scared I'm going to slip into an abyss of hell that I once went into for over a year.
I've gone through some debilitating depressive episodes this past week. I was stuck in bed for a few days, which I'm trying to understand what triggered it. The issue is that early yesterday morning, I emailed my disability counselor to tell my professor I can't make it to class. I also emailed a psychology professor (who knew me... because of another professor knowing about my depression) for psychiatry referrals (I've done this before!).
But until today, I feel guilty and scared. I feel BAD for needing to take time off. I feel like a failure and am ashamed. I haven't even dared to look at my phone to see anyone's response.
How do you guys overcome situations like these? I'm dreading someone cursing me out over email just because I'm taking time off for myself. I know how depressed I can be and know I shouldn't try to be in class. Why am I still beating myself up over it? And most of the time, I almost feel like my depression isn't real even though it caused me to be in bedrest for over a year before! I can't and don't even want to share with more people about my disability and ask for accommodations. It's insane that I disqualify all of my struggles and expect myself to not struggle... I almost feel like others will think I'm taking advantage of time off when it's not something I even want... I'd rather be able to do work than to be stuck in bed, depressed.
(I've also noticed that I can give advice to other Redditors struggling with depression but I can't even listen to myself!)
Ahhh, any help will be great. I wish I didn't have to dread and dream about reading emails T.T thought I solved this problem long ago!
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throwaway59423
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2020-02-14 15:21:56
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Hey all. <es>So I'm in my last semester of college and I'm covered by my disability center.<ee> <es>If I ever struggle with depression like hell, I can email the disability employee assigned to me and she can help me communicate to my professor.<ee> <es>Extended deadlines, excused absences for missed classes, etc.<ee> <es>Last semester, the dean of my school excused me from 2 weeks of classes cause he was scared I'm going to slip into an abyss of hell that I once went into for over a year. <ee> <es>I've gone through some debilitating depressive episodes this past week.<ee> <es>I was stuck in bed for a few days, which I'm trying to understand what triggered it.<ee> <es>The issue is that early yesterday morning, I emailed my disability counselor to tell my professor I can't make it to class.<ee> <es>I also emailed a psychology professor (who knew me... because of another professor knowing about my depression) for psychiatry referrals (I've done this before!).<ee> <efs>But until today, I feel guilty and scared.<efe> <efs>I feel BAD for needing to take time off.<efe> <efs>I feel like a failure and am ashamed.<efe> <efs>I haven't even dared to look at my phone to see anyone's response.<efe> <rs>How do you guys overcome situations like these?<re> <efs>I'm dreading someone cursing me out over email just because I'm taking time off for myself.<efe> <es>I know how depressed I can be and know I shouldn't try to be in class.<ee> <rs>Why am I still beating myself up over it?<re> <efs>And most of the time, I almost feel like my depression isn't real even though it caused me to be in bedrest for over a year before!<efe> <es>I can't and don't even want to share with more people about my disability and ask for accommodations.<ee> <es>It's insane that I disqualify all of my struggles and expect myself to not struggle... I almost feel like others will think I'm taking advantage of time off when it's not something I even want... I'd rather be able to do work than to be stuck in bed, depressed. <ee> <es>(I've also noticed that I can give advice to other Redditors struggling with depression but I can't even listen to myself!) <ee> <rs>Ahhh, any help will be great.<re> <rs>I wish I didn't have to dread and dream about reading emails T.T thought I solved this problem long ago!<re>
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ej7xkb
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When you’re talking to a girl the MOST important thing you need to pay attention to is her BODY LANGUAGE. Her Actions will speak louder than words. If you pick up on these things you it will help you understand women and be more successful.How To Know If A Girl Likes You judging By Her Body Language
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AbundanceLifeStyle
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2020-01-03 01:29:10
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When you’re talking to a girl the MOST important thing you need to pay attention to is her BODY LANGUAGE. Her Actions will speak louder than words. If you pick up on these things you it will help you understand women and be more successful. How To Know If A Girl Likes You judging By Her Body Language
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Not a post. A statement
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eiuqzr
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Anybody else ever feel like they're a burden to talk to?
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1a
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Basically the title. Does anyone else ever feel just like it isnt worth attempting to initiate a conversation with someone new just out of fear that they'll seem like a burden or a waste of time? I feel like I cant talk to anyone (not that I really can these days) new because I always get so worried that nobody will care :(
Sorry in advance for how incoherent and probably dumb this sounds. It's really late
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Cassandraaaaaaaa
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2020-01-02 06:45:31
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socialanxiety
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Basically the title. <rs>Does anyone else ever feel just like it isnt worth attempting to initiate a conversation with someone new just out of fear that they'll seem like a burden or a waste of time?<re> <es>I feel like I cant talk to anyone (not that I really can these days) new because I always get so worried that nobody will care :(<ee> Sorry in advance for how incoherent and probably dumb this sounds. It's really late
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that nobody would care
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ep3edp
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I find this book helpful...Charisma on Command: Inspire, Impress, and Energize Everyone You Meet
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Samcade99
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2020-01-15 15:04:02
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selfhelp
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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f4lwij
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I don't know what to do
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1a
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rant
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is something wrong with me? I keep putting holes in things whenever I'm mad. I get told I need therapy by my sister and that I ruin everything I want to die that way they can't deal with me anymore
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throatvomit
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2020-02-16 05:01:43
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Anger
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<rs>is something wrong with me?<re> <es>I keep putting holes in things whenever I'm mad.<ee> <es>I get told I need therapy by my sister and that I ruin everything I want to die that way they can't deal with me anymore<ee>
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what makes you angry
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How did X make you feel?
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all the anger
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you break things in anger
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f4t6nb
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Free groups and meetings for anger management in NYC
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help-seeking
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Good Morning
Very new to Reddit but problems in my life have made me come to the point to realize I need help with controlling my anger and the reactions that stem from it. I am becoming a danger to myself and others if I don’t start the work to understand and find tools to control my anger as well as my temper . I don’t feel comfortable going to the people in my life. cause I’ve tried but they don’t understand this feeling or level anger and not feeling in control sometimes. If anyone knows any free groups in NYC for help in dealing with anger or at least talking about it . Please let me know , I have no problem taking a train .
Thank you ❤️
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HeadteacherSnape
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2020-02-16 16:45:12
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Anger
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Good Morning <es>Very new to Reddit but problems in my life have made me come to the point to realize I need help with controlling my anger and the reactions that stem from it.<ee> <es>I am becoming a danger to myself and others if I don’t start the work to understand and find tools to control my anger as well as my temper .<ee> <es>I don’t feel comfortable going to the people in my life.<ee> <efs>cause I’ve tried but they don’t understand this feeling or level anger and not feeling in control sometimes.<efe> <rs>If anyone knows any free groups in NYC for help in dealing with anger or at least talking about it .<re> <rs>Please let me know , I have no problem taking a train .<re> Thank you ❤️
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eoisih
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I'm an addict after trying to help an addict.
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1a
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rant
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Hi,
I'm 19 and started a new job in April 2019. I became friends with one of my colleagues very quickly and well after she begged me to pick her up at 1am one night then sniffed a line of coke in my car, it became obvious she was an addict. That and the fact she did coke everyday. So I helped her. From June she didn't do any drugs she was clean it was fucking fantastic. Then her 19th birthday came around and she asked me "Can I have a line of coke, just one line?" And I thought fuck it its your birthday. So she had one and I had one. Then we had another one. Then another.
This was in December. Since then I have spent £1000 or so on coke. I've missed work, stood up family members and done some dodgy shit to get coke. Now it's 9am on a Tuesday. I've got work at 10am and I'm coked up. So yeah, I've fucked up.
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Stonmands
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2020-01-14 08:53:55
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addiction
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Hi, <es>I'm 19 and started a new job in April 2019.<ee> <es>I became friends with one of my colleagues very quickly and well after she begged me to pick her up at 1am one night then sniffed a line of coke in my car, it became obvious she was an addict.<ee> <es>That and the fact she did coke everyday.<ee> <es>So I helped her.<ee> <es>From June she didn't do any drugs she was clean it was fucking fantastic.<ee> <es>Then her 19th birthday came around and she asked me "Can I have a line of coke, just one line?"<ee> <es>And I thought fuck it its your birthday.<ee> <es>So she had one and I had one.<ee> <es>Then we had another one.<ee> <es>Then another.<ee> <es>This was in December.<ee> <es>Since then I have spent £1000 or so on coke.<ee> <es>I've missed work, stood up family members and done some dodgy shit to get coke.<ee> <es>Now it's 9am on a Tuesday.<ee> <es>I've got work at 10am and I'm coked up.<ee> <es>So yeah, I've fucked up.<ee>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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How did X make you feel?
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getting addicted to coke
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you got yourself addicted to coke
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f5vhmc
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Unsure of what to do
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1b
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help-seeking
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My (40F) spouse (44M) has been verbally abusive since we've first gotten together. It used to be far and few between, however. When he was working, he was often busy and happy, and didn't have all this time to just sulk and pick me apart. It's become unbearable lately, compounded by the fact that we no longer live in the city and are more isolated. He's just a miserable person who refuses to get a job or at least a hobby. I'm the sole bread winner, and even though we have more than enough money for both of us to live on, he makes all the decisions about how we spend it and penny pinches everything to death. If I were to spend money on something without asking first, he'd flip out.
In some of his darker moments, he has threatened to kill me, or to kill himself. He has often broken things in the house, or threatened to break one of my work computers. He is a little hard of hearing and often can't understand what people say, which makes him angry. If he can't understand something I've said, he immediately starts screaming at me and mocking me. If we get into a fight in the car, he will swerve on the road, slam the breaks or just drive like a maniac to scare me. He absolutely cannot take a joke, and will become angry if he thinks someone is "disrespecting him" in that way (by joking).
He also has a very bad reaction to surprises or being startled. We have an old house on our property that's falling apart. We went to look it a few months back, to see if maybe there was something we could salvage from it. He had walked into one of the rooms, and I was looking at the floorboards in the doorway, from outside the house. I accidentally dropped a board and he immediately flipped out, screaming, "how could you do that! you made me think the house was falling!" and as I was looking down, the next thing I knew sever pain in my head, and tasted blood in my mouth. He had thrown a board across the room and hit me across the forehead. I almost fell down backwards. I felt dizzy and sick. He was still screaming like some kind of ape, but I couldn't see what he was doing or make it out. I had screamed out in pain, which somewhat slowed him down, but he still wasn't that concerned. I started screaming back that I was leaving and started heading towards the house. He followed. He kept begging me not to leave, to let him see what he'd done, and he was "horrified." I kept telling him "f\*\*\* you, I'm leaving" through tears and eventually we made it to our house. He kept putting ice on my head and was somewhat apologetic, but I wasn't saying anything back. I was still dizzy and in shock. My head was super swollen. When he wasn't getting the response he wanted he started saying things like "just wait until you do something to me- I'm going to celebrate on it." Of course I reminded him that I've never thrown anything at him, or acted like that ever. He kept saying it was an accident, but eventually conceded that he knew I was in the direction of that piece of wood he threw at me. Even days later, he was still mad at me for "making him feel bad" about my getting injured.
Sadly, I think I should have called the police then. I didn't only because my family was coming to visit us in two days and I didn't want to upset the timeline. I thought maybe when they were here visiting things would be better. He was normally OK when family or other visitors came, but he was really awful during this trip. On the bright side I was finally able to come clean with my family about just how awful he is, plus it made explaining the bruise on my forehead much easier.
It's impossible living with him lately. Everything is my fault. Everything... I know it might sound dramatic, but sadly, this is how it is in his mind. He refuses to take responsibility for his actions. His apologies are non-existent. He's told me that he feels it's "his right to correct" people or bully them if they do something stupid. He's just horrible and now it's to the point where it's not even livable being with him. He doesn't really have any friends. He has one friend from his 20s that he talks on the phone with once in a while, but he yells even at him every now and then for "not making sense when he talks", "talking about stupid things", or "talking like a highschooler."
I know I need to leave. I just need to figure out when and how. It's complicated because we have a farm, and I'm afraid of what will happen to the livestock if I just leave. It's becoming unbearable though, and I'm afraid of what he might do.
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justwantpeace12
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2020-02-18 17:38:55
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domesticviolence
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<es>My (40F) spouse (44M) has been verbally abusive since we've first gotten together. <ee> <es>It used to be far and few between, however. <ee> <es>When he was working, he was often busy and happy, and didn't have all this time to just sulk and pick me apart. <ee> <efs>It's become unbearable lately, compounded by the fact that we no longer live in the city and are more isolated.<efe> <es> He's just a miserable person who refuses to get a job or at least a hobby.<ee> <es> I'm the sole bread winner, and even though we have more than enough money for both of us to live on, he makes all the decisions about how we spend it and penny pinches everything to death. <ee> <es>If I were to spend money on something without asking first, he'd flip out.<ee> <es>In some of his darker moments, he has threatened to kill me, or to kill himself.<ee> <es> He has often broken things in the house, or threatened to break one of my work computers. <ee> <es>He is a little hard of hearing and often can't understand what people say, which makes him angry. <ee> <es>If he can't understand something I've said, he immediately starts screaming at me and mocking me.<ee> <es> If we get into a fight in the car, he will swerve on the road, slam the breaks or just drive like a maniac to scare me. <ee> <es>He absolutely cannot take a joke, and will become angry if he thinks someone is "disrespecting him" in that way (by joking). <ee> <es>He also has a very bad reaction to surprises or being startled.<ee> <es> We have an old house on our property that's falling apart.<ee> <es>We went to look it a few months back, to see if maybe there was something we could salvage from it.<ee> <es> He had walked into one of the rooms, and I was looking at the floorboards in the doorway, from outside the house. <ee> <es>I accidentally dropped a board and he immediately flipped out, screaming, "how could you do that! you made me think the house was falling!" and as I was looking down, the next thing I knew sever pain in my head, and tasted blood in my mouth. <ee> <es>He had thrown a board across the room and hit me across the forehead.<ee> <es> I almost fell down backwards.<ee> <es> I felt dizzy and sick.<ee> <es>He was still screaming like some kind of ape, but I couldn't see what he was doing or make it out. <ee> <es>I had screamed out in pain, which somewhat slowed him down, but he still wasn't that concerned. <ee> <es>I started screaming back that I was leaving and started heading towards the house. <ee> <es>He followed. <ee> <es>He kept begging me not to leave, to let him see what he'd done, and he was "horrified." <ee> <es>I kept telling him "f\*\*\* you, I'm leaving" through tears and eventually we made it to our house.<ee> <es> He kept putting ice on my head and was somewhat apologetic, but I wasn't saying anything back. <ee> <es>I was still dizzy and in shock. <ee> <es>My head was super swollen.<ee> <es> When he wasn't getting the response he wanted he started saying things like "just wait until you do something to me- I'm going to celebrate on it."<ee> <es> Of course I reminded him that I've never thrown anything at him, or acted like that ever. <ee> <es>He kept saying it was an accident, but eventually conceded that he knew I was in the direction of that piece of wood he threw at me.<ee> <es>Even days later, he was still mad at me for "making him feel bad" about my getting injured.<ee> <es>Sadly, I think I should have called the police then.<ee> <es> I didn't only because my family was coming to visit us in two days and I didn't want to upset the timeline.<ee> <es> I thought maybe when they were here visiting things would be better.<ee> <es> He was normally OK when family or other visitors came, but he was really awful during this trip.<ee> <es> On the bright side I was finally able to come clean with my family about just how awful he is, plus it made explaining the bruise on my forehead much easier.<ee> <es>It's impossible living with him lately. <ee> <es>Everything is my fault.<ee> <es> Everything... I know it might sound dramatic, but sadly, this is how it is in his mind. <ee> <es>He refuses to take responsibility for his actions.<ee> <es> His apologies are non-existent.<ee> <es> He's told me that he feels it's "his right to correct" people or bully them if they do something stupid.<ee> <es> He's just horrible and now it's to the point where it's not even livable being with him. <ee> <es>He doesn't really have any friends.<ee> <es> He has one friend from his 20s that he talks on the phone with once in a while, but he yells even at him every now and then for "not making sense when he talks", "talking about stupid things", or "talking like a highschooler." <ee> <rs>I know I need to leave. <re> I just need to figure out when and how. <re> <efs>It's complicated because we have a farm, and I'm afraid of what will happen to the livestock if I just leave. <efe> <efs>It's becoming unbearable though, and I'm afraid of what he might do.<efe>
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what would help you leave him
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eitwho
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Feelin' like cutting
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1a
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rant
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I don't know why. I've been clean 10 days already. I really wanna tear up my thigh.
I made a promise to myself that if I did pick up the habit again, I'd stay away from my arms because it sucks not being able to wear short sleeves.
Where I live right now is freezing and will stay that way until around June, so I won't be forced to wear shorts.
Idk.... I'm still mad that I told my mom and she doesn't believe the reasons I've stated (gender dysphoria,stress, depression).
Like: WOW. Thanks mom, I feel so supported.
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emery-is-lemony
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2020-01-02 05:23:26
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selfharm
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<es>Feelin' like cutting<ee> <es>I don't know why.<ee> <es>I've been clean 10 days already.<ee> <es>I really wanna tear up my thigh.<ee> <es>I made a promise to myself that if I did pick up the habit again, I'd stay away from my arms because it sucks not being able to wear short sleeves. <ee> <es>Where I live right now is freezing and will stay that way until around June, so I won't be forced to wear shorts.<ee> <es>Idk.... I'm still mad that I told my mom and she doesn't believe the reasons I've stated (gender dysphoria,stress, depression).<ee> Like: WOW. Thanks mom, I feel so supported.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you want to cut yourself again
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How did X make you feel?
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the urge to cut yourself
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are having urges to cut again
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em1stq
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Ñon Alcoholic Beer?
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survey
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Has anyone tried non alcoholic beer? Is it a trigger, or does it satisfy a craving?
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jjj49er
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2020-01-09 00:37:55
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<rs>Has anyone tried non alcoholic beer?<re> <rs>Is it a trigger, or does it satisfy a craving?<re>
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What happened that you want X ?
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you want to try non alcoholic beer
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Why are you wanting X ?
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non alcoholic beer
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emdfrv
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Is this rape?
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1b
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help-seeking
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A 20 year old man and a 20 year old women meet in a club. They’re going to her place while she says on the way there that she doesn’t want to have anything sexual tonight. They end up sleeping in the same bed sharing a carpet. And the guy starts touching her. She says „bitch“ but doesn’t try to make him stop physically. He continues while she keeps saying „bitch“ a few times. It goes on and comes to oral only including his genital. She also touched his genital. He tried to put her hands in her trousers also after she let him know that she didn’t want that and also preventing it by taking his hand. Which he tried about 3-4 times.
After it is over she goes to the bathroom and he follows her and asks her if everything was ok after knocking on the door.
They then share the bed for the night.
In the Morning they talk for an hour in the bed and before she offers him to eat something he says that he wouldn’t mind to stay a bit longer if it was ok for her.
She then takes a shower and offers him if he also wanted to take a shower but he denies. When he leaves they exchange phone numbers on his asking.
3 days later the holidays start and they don’t meet or text over the 2 weeks the holidays last.
Afterwards he meets a friend of the women in a club.
Then next day she contacts him and he replied not knowing at this point that he wouldn’t understand what this was about. If it was about the day when the describes situation took place and that if so they that it would seem they had different perspectives and that they could talk about it. He doesn’t say sorry or anything, making it later clear that he would be scared of it having consequences legally, without saying so.
While I have my own opinion I don’t mind
anyone sharing his opinion on that.
Mainly I’m interested in the legal possibilities for the women though.
Thanks to everyone helping.
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freeziMC9
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2020-01-09 18:08:01
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rapecounseling
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<es>A 20 year old man and a 20 year old women meet in a club.<ee> <es>They’re going to her place while she says on the way there that she doesn’t want to have anything sexual tonight. <ee><es>They end up sleeping in the same bed sharing a carpet.<ee> <es>And the guy starts touching her.<ee> <es>She says „bitch“ but doesn’t try to make him stop physically.<ee> <es>He continues while she keeps saying „bitch“ a few times.<ee> <es>It goes on and comes to oral only including his genital.<ee> <es>She also touched his genital.<ee> <es>He tried to put her hands in her trousers also after she let him know that she didn’t want that and also preventing it by taking his hand.<ee> <es>Which he tried about 3-4 times. <ee> <es>After it is over she goes to the bathroom and he follows her and asks her if everything was ok after knocking on the door.<ee> <es>They then share the bed for the night.<ee> <es>In the Morning they talk for an hour in the bed and before she offers him to eat something he says that he wouldn’t mind to stay a bit longer if it was ok for her.<ee> <es>She then takes a shower and offers him if he also wanted to take a shower but he denies.<ee> <es>When he leaves they exchange phone numbers on his asking.<ee> <es>3 days later the holidays start and they don’t meet or text over the 2 weeks the holidays last.<ee> <es>Afterwards he meets a friend of the women in a club. <ee> <es>Then next day she contacts him and he replied not knowing at this point that he wouldn’t understand what this was about.<ee> <es>If it was about the day when the describes situation took place and that if so they that it would seem they had different perspectives and that they could talk about it.<ee> <es>He doesn’t say sorry or anything, making it later clear that he would be scared of it having consequences legally, without saying so. <ee> <rs>While I have my own opinion I don’t mind anyone sharing his opinion on that. <re> <rs>Mainly I’m interested in the legal possibilities for the women though.<re> Thanks to everyone helping.
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How did X make you feel?
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the incident
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eiphz9
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Facebook videos
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help-seeking
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So, I didnt realize until a friend mentioned last night that Facebook videos gauge if and how long you watch them...then they post more of those videos on your timeline. It is no damn wonder I get sucked in for hours and can barely escape!
So my New Year's resolution is going to be limiting my FB. Any successful apps to help with it?
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Herzvonmir07
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2020-01-01 23:19:35
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ADHD
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So, I didnt realize until a friend mentioned last night that Facebook videos gauge if and how long you watch them...then they post more of those videos on your timeline. It is no damn wonder I get sucked in for hours and can barely escape! So my New Year's resolution is going to be limiting my FB. Any successful apps to help with it?
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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eo2a3d
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Quitting
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1a
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help-seeking
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I am a drug addict and want to quit any advice
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shaung2020
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2020-01-13 10:13:51
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addiction
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<es>I am a drug addict.<ee> <rs>want to quit any advice<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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drug addiction
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How did X make you feel?
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taking the drugs
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etonmq
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I think it is ridiculous that this guy thinks that the victims of dating app murders always made informed consent and could never be taken advantage off.
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help-seeking
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https://donotlink.it/BJ4v4
>The dead man was such a sweetheart — “He loved and cherished everyone he touched” — as if being nice and courteous means that you can’t also be depraved and decadent. It reminds me of Mackenzie Lueck, the small-town Mormon girl from Utah, much beloved by her sorority sisters at the university, but who nonetheless went for a 3 a.m. rendezvous with a Nigerian guy she only knew from the Internet. Her body was burned and dumped in the desert, and nobody wants to talk about the evidence that she was hustling extra cash as a “sugar baby.”
>ONLINE DATING IS FOR LOSERS!
Some soft bigotry as well.
If you have stats to prove him wrong please let me know.
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ryu289
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2020-01-25 09:13:19
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rapecounseling
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https://donotlink.it/BJ4v4 >The dead man was such a sweetheart — “He loved and cherished everyone he touched” — as if being nice and courteous means that you can’t also be depraved and decadent. It reminds me of Mackenzie Lueck, the small-town Mormon girl from Utah, much beloved by her sorority sisters at the university, but who nonetheless went for a 3 a.m. rendezvous with a Nigerian guy she only knew from the Internet. Her body was burned and dumped in the desert, and nobody wants to talk about the evidence that she was hustling extra cash as a “sugar baby.” >ONLINE DATING IS FOR LOSERS! Some soft bigotry as well. If you have stats to prove him wrong please let me know.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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evix4o
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How daddy issues massively affect, well... everything(?)
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1b
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help-seeking
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Hello there.
Nowadays, I see a lot of young people (especially women) having those so called daddy or mommy issues (depending on which parent did you dirty). It is this 'cool' and 'kinky' thing, it seems like it's being glorified and I can't stand it. I'm not talking about ageplay or age regression, since those are fine but sometimes the reasoning behind those preferences is way darker and sadder. In my case, my father has been neglecting me since I can remember. Parents got divorced when I was very little and I moved out with my mom. I barely see him, barely talk to him. His carelessness kills me inside, especially when I think of the past, because it was always the case and always will be... The fact that this feeling is familiar and normal to me, makes me such a self-destructive person. I only recently realized that I look for male attention to 'fill the hole', I get attached as soon as I find out the guy I am talking to is nice. I am DESPERATE for their attention and validation, I want to be seen and noticed. And here comes the worst part, as soon as the guy becomes a little distant, consciously or not, I completely lose it and become more attached. Why? Because my psychological itch has been scratched, I needed that feeling of familiarity and in my case, being neglected. So when they give me even the slightest form of attention again, I feel such a rush, I am the happiest person on earth. It truly does feel like I am high on drugs. But also I noticed how my behavior shifts as soon as I have a person like that. I am a lot happier, more productive, I research my hobbies, I work out. I feel like a flower that has bloomed. Don't get me wrong, I never think "I am doing this for him", it's just that my whole lifestyle changes. I am 20 now (F) and this needs to stop, truly. Going to therapy is near impossible, but I am trying to get an appointment. Anyone with similar stories? Any tips on how to cope with it? If you've made it this far, thank you for reading through. I wish you well❤
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YeetTheBeet0
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2020-01-29 06:11:35
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getting_over_it
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Hello there. <es>Nowadays, I see a lot of young people (especially women) having those so called daddy or mommy issues (depending on which parent did you dirty).<ee> <efs>It is this 'cool' and 'kinky' thing, it seems like it's being glorified and I can't stand it.<efe> <es>I'm not talking about ageplay or age regression, since those are fine but sometimes the reasoning behind those preferences is way darker and sadder.<ee> <es>In my case, my father has been neglecting me since I can remember.<ee> <es>Parents got divorced when I was very little and I moved out with my mom.<ee> <es>I barely see him, barely talk to him.<ee> <es>His carelessness kills me inside, especially when I think of the past, because it was always the case and always will be...<ee> <efs>The fact that this feeling is familiar and normal to me, makes me such a self-destructive person.<efe> <efs>I only recently realized that I look for male attention to 'fill the hole', I get attached as soon as I find out the guy I am talking to is nice.<efe> <efs>I am DESPERATE for their attention and validation, I want to be seen and noticed.<efe> <efs>And here comes the worst part, as soon as the guy becomes a little distant, consciously or not, I completely lose it and become more attached.<efe> Why? <efs>Because my psychological itch has been scratched, I needed that feeling of familiarity and in my case, being neglected.<efe> <efs>So when they give me even the slightest form of attention again, I feel such a rush, I am the happiest person on earth.<efe> <efs>It truly does feel like I am high on drugs.<efe> <es>But also I noticed how my behavior shifts as soon as I have a person like that.<ee> <efs>I am a lot happier, more productive, I research my hobbies, I work out.<efe> <efs>I feel like a flower that has bloomed.<efe> Don't get me wrong, I never think "I am doing this for him", it's just that my whole lifestyle changes. <rs>I am 20 now (F) and this needs to stop, truly.<re> <es>Going to therapy is near impossible, but I am trying to get an appointment.<ee> <rs>Anyone with similar stories?<re> <rs>Any tips on how to cope with it?<re> If you've made it this far, thank you for reading through. I wish you well❤
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fiees1
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Depressed and sad strangers tend to ward off more people, by asking for help, than they actually find help.
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1a
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rant
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I believe one of the nicest things you can do for a therapist, a psychiatrist, or any doctor, is to listen and adhere to their advise, and also to report on any recovery. We all want to know that all our efforts aren't wasted because of someone else's pride or negligence, and I don't think professionals are exceptions to that.
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My doctors know my situation is bad, and are very helpful most of the time. So when I tell them I'm feeling better, it brings me comfort too, because I know I'm not just sitting around expecting things to change. I used to blame my depression and misery on anyone but myself. Then I'd only blame myself. Then I came to terms with the fact that no one is really at fault, but I still need to clean up this mess.
Many of my "inner demons" are biological; Treatment resistant major depressive disorder and 5-HTTLPR polymorphism, being the big ones.
And frankly, I've made great strides towards managing my situation. However, as grateful as I am for escaping that endless pit, I can't help but struggle to accomplish the most basic of goals.
I've avoided suicide for almost twenty years, only to recently feel like I'm alive only because my family would be sad if I died. Yet, in a majority of this time, I've been suffering.
I'm alive because they want me alive, despite frequently mentioning my pain.
Maybe I'm bitter, confused, jaded, or just not seeing things right, but I feel that the longer I live, the less I'm *me*. The longer I hurt, the harder is it to feel.
I want to get better. I **really** do. However, I can't seem to find anything worth living for. More accurately; I don't feel valuable.
The longer I live, the less value I see in myself. I've become obese. I've lost a great deal of my humor. I don't feel as smart or witty as I once was. I find very little to be inspirational. And I could go on, but in the off-chance someone is reading this, I don't want to bore you with my own pity party.
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The longer I write this, the more hopeless I feel. More tired.
I think many of us, if not most of us, on here, are familiar with telling the same story over-and-over again, or finding little to know help regardless of what we do. It's a bit of a bleak outlook, but it's far from an impossibility.
Depressed and sad strangers tend to ward off more people, by asking for help, than they actually find help. After all, who *wants* to draw the attention of drama, and the mentally ill?
It's at this point that I realize I'm probably just talking to myself. At least I'm getting my thoughts out though. Who knows? Maybe I'll stumble upon some revelation.
Been sitting quietly staring at the screen for maybe a few minutes after that last sentence. I think that's just the hopelessness sinking in more upon realizing that this is all going unheard.
Have I even made a point or a plea after all of this?
I just want to feel like I'm valuable, I guess. I want to feel more human again. I don't want to resent my family for wanting me to live, as if they've sentenced me to slowly rot.
I want to stop day dreaming of being someone that others can count on. I want to no longer need two pills for depression, an experimental pill for treatment resistant depression, and eleven other pills just to feel somewhat normal.
I want to feel loved. I don't want others to feel obligated to help me just because that's the "acceptable" thing to do. I want to be appreciated, not pitied.
I want to feel like my goals aren't out of my reach. I want to feel hope.
I'm just so tired.
Maybe I just need to sleep this off.
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SilverSpotter
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2020-03-14 06:49:29
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getting_over_it
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I believe one of the nicest things you can do for a therapist, a psychiatrist, or any doctor, is to listen and adhere to their advise, and also to report on any recovery. We all want to know that all our efforts aren't wasted because of someone else's pride or negligence, and I don't think professionals are exceptions to that. &#x200B; <es>My doctors know my situation is bad, and are very helpful most of the time.<ee> <es>So when I tell them I'm feeling better, it brings me comfort too, because I know I'm not just sitting around expecting things to change.<ee> <es>I used to blame my depression and misery on anyone but myself.<ee> <es>Then I'd only blame myself.<ee> <es>Then I came to terms with the fact that no one is really at fault, but I still need to clean up this mess.<ee> <es>Many of my "inner demons" are biological; Treatment resistant major depressive disorder and 5-HTTLPR polymorphism, being the big ones.<ee> <es>And frankly, I've made great strides towards managing my situation.<ee> <es>However, as grateful as I am for escaping that endless pit, I can't help but struggle to accomplish the most basic of goals.<ee> <efs>I've avoided suicide for almost twenty years, only to recently feel like I'm alive only because my family would be sad if I died.<efe> <es>Yet, in a majority of this time, I've been suffering.<ee> <efs>I'm alive because they want me alive, despite frequently mentioning my pain.<efe> <efs>Maybe I'm bitter, confused, jaded, or just not seeing things right, but I feel that the longer I live, the less I'm *me*.<efe> <efs>The longer I hurt, the harder is it to feel.<efe> <rs>I want to get better.<re> <rs>I **really** do.<re> <es>However, I can't seem to find anything worth living for.<ee> <efs>More accurately; I don't feel valuable.<efe> <efs>The longer I live, the less value I see in myself.<efe> <efs>I've become obese. <efe><efs>I've lost a great deal of my humor.<efe> <efs>I don't feel as smart or witty as I once was.<efe> <efs>I find very little to be inspirational.<efe> And I could go on, but in the off-chance someone is reading this, I don't want to bore you with my own pity party. &#x200B; <efs>The longer I write this, the more hopeless I feel.<efE> <efs>More tired.<efe> <es>I think many of us, if not most of us, on here, are familiar with telling the same story over-and-over again, or finding little to know help regardless of what we do.<ee> <es>It's a bit of a bleak outlook, but it's far from an impossibility.<ee> <es>Depressed and sad strangers tend to ward off more people, by asking for help, than they actually find help.<ee> <es>After all, who *wants* to draw the attention of drama, and the mentally ill?<ee> <es>It's at this point that I realize I'm probably just talking to myself.<ee> At least I'm getting my thoughts out though. Who knows? Maybe I'll stumble upon some revelation. <es>Been sitting quietly staring at the screen for maybe a few minutes after that last sentence.<ee> <efs>I think that's just the hopelessness sinking in more upon realizing that this is all going unheard.<efe> Have I even made a point or a plea after all of this? <rs>I just want to feel like I'm valuable, I guess.<re> <rs>I want to feel more human again.<re> <rs>I don't want to resent my family for wanting me to live, as if they've sentenced me to slowly rot.<re> <rs>I want to stop day dreaming of being someone that others can count on.<re> <rs>I want to no longer need two pills for depression, an experimental pill for treatment resistant depression, and eleven other pills just to feel somewhat normal.<re> <rs>I want to feel loved.<re> <rs>I don't want others to feel obligated to help me just because that's the "acceptable" thing to do.<re> <rs>I want to be appreciated, not pitied.<re> <rs>I want to feel like my goals aren't out of my reach.<re> <rs>I want to feel hope.<re> <efs>I'm just so tired.<efe> Maybe I just need to sleep this off.
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emdhyw
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Oficially 24 hours sober.
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0
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Thought id do a small update about my recent relapse. Made it 24 hours and got the past the shitty withdrawls and hangover and anxiety attacks. now to stay on the wagon and find a good support group in my area.
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SpicyLuis
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2020-01-09 18:12:19
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alcoholicsanonymous
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Thought id do a small update about my recent relapse. <es>Made it 24 hours and got the past the shitty withdrawls and hangover and anxiety attacks.<ee> <rs>now to stay on the wagon and find a good support group in my area.<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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your withdrawl symptoms
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How did X make you feel?
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the anxiety attacks and withdrawl
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eppdz4
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I don't enjoy my work but it pays a lot better than any otherjob. this keeps pushing me into depression, anxiety and very disturbing thoughts, which I just cannot help
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1a
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rant
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tanzoo88
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2020-01-16 20:51:18
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selfhelp
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<es>I don't enjoy my work but it pays a lot better than any otherjob.<ee> <efs>this keeps pushing me into depression, anxiety and very disturbing thoughts, which I just cannot help<efe>
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your job
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your job is pushing you into depression
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em0xyt
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Newcomer Packet Ideas?
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0
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Hey guys, I've been given freedom by our group conscience to put together a newcomer packet for our group. I'd like to hear what others have included in theirs. The obvious is a meeting list for our area and a group phone list. Thanks for your input.
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mushank3r
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2020-01-08 23:34:03
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alcoholicsanonymous
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Hey guys, I've been given freedom by our group conscience to put together a newcomer packet for our group. I'd like to hear what others have included in theirs. The obvious is a meeting list for our area and a group phone list. Thanks for your input.
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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eiphdr
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White noise for ADHD
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chitchat
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Hello people!
Recently, a small study found that white noise therapy improves cognitive functioning in students with ADHD. It helps you focus and relaxing.
Here is a link to a white noise video. (if you are still reading this)
:-)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Min9ZuvTfUM&list=LLIcKtbyGVaFMXXMGWFsuhtw&index=2&t=12866s
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wirow
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2020-01-01 23:18:23
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ADHD
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Hello people! Recently, a small study found that white noise therapy improves cognitive functioning in students with ADHD. It helps you focus and relaxing. Here is a link to a white noise video. (if you are still reading this) :-) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Min9ZuvTfUM&list=LLIcKtbyGVaFMXXMGWFsuhtw&index=2&t=12866s
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ei78to
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this community
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0
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spending nye all by myself as usual but... this is the first time I'm spending it on reddit and omg I've never related this much... guess I'm not completely alone :)
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lauryleah
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2019-12-31 19:05:41
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depression
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<es>spending nye all by myself as usual but...<ee> this is the first time I'm spending it on reddit and omg I've never related this much... guess I'm not completely alone :)
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you spend new year alone
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How did X make you feel?
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spending new year by yourself
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel lonely
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ekt910
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It really happen all the time
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0
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chitchat
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edfaghyesvnyg
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2020-01-06 12:03:08
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socialanxiety
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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eingag
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Mixing medications
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0
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help-seeking
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Most medications i have access are not working.
They dont last long enough.
Would mixing some meds help me out?
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rathic
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2020-01-01 20:41:34
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ADHD
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<es>Most medications i have access are not working.<ee> <es>They dont last long enough.<ee> <rs>Would mixing some meds help me out?<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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the medicines you are taking and why
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How did X make you feel?
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the medicines
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ezf8ct
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This is somewhat pedestrian, but I honestly think the only thing that motivates me is when I see people I know doing well, and I don't think they are "better" than me
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1a
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rant
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I've been highly unmotivated for years, and just slogging along - everything I think of seems to have conditions "well what if..." "there's not point because..." so this negativity makes me give up a lot before I start.
BUT I noticed that the one thing that makes me drive through these obstacles and act like a non-depressed person is when I see someone I know doing well, and think "well, they're no better than me" it honestly lights a fire up and drives me forward like nothing else.
Even though this may not be healthy, if I exploit this for a year or two it could honestly change my life for the better.
Eventually, I'll have to graduate to the fact that I need to be content and should not compare myself to others but I need to "go up in life" to stop at a higher baseline, where I'm at now would be depressing for anyone.
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throwawaylife58924
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2020-02-05 19:50:02
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getting_over_it
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I've been highly unmotivated for years, and just slogging along - everything I think of seems to have conditions "well what if..." "there's not point because..." so this negativity makes me give up a lot before I start. BUT I noticed that the one thing that makes me drive through these obstacles and act like a non-depressed person is when I see someone I know doing well, and think "well, they're no better than me" it honestly lights a fire up and drives me forward like nothing else. Even though this may not be healthy, if I exploit this for a year or two it could honestly change my life for the better. Eventually, I'll have to graduate to the fact that I need to be content and should not compare myself to others but I need to "go up in life" to stop at a higher baseline, where I'm at now would be depressing for anyone.
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eicw4m
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New social media anxiety
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0
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I just made a Snapchat after only using Reddit/Discord/IG for the past year and I'm already anxious about the potential social situations that can get me in but I also know it's a borderline necessary part of modern zoomer-ism
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InsufferableIowan
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2020-01-01 02:44:44
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socialanxiety
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I just made a Snapchat after only using Reddit/Discord/IG for the past year and I'm already anxious about the potential social situations that can get me in but I also know it's a borderline necessary part of modern zoomer-ism
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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eiuq4x
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DAE feel sad by this "new year, new decade"?
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1a
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survey
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It seems like everybody has all these goals. Goals that they could accomplish. But, for me, it feels like all my goals depend on my bpd. I will still keep on having those bad days. I will still keep on having those suicidal thoughts. I will still feel internally empty. I will still feel this constant need of validation from everyone in my life. These feelings don't stop and it makes it hard for me to get through every single day. It's almost like everyday is unpredictable for me.
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iritropical
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2020-01-02 06:43:06
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BPD
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<es>It seems like everybody has all these goals.<ee> <es>Goals that they could accomplish.<ee> <efs>But, for me, it feels like all my goals depend on my bpd.<efe> <es>I will still keep on having those bad days.<ee> <es>I will still keep on having those suicidal thoughts.<ee> <efs>I will still feel internally empty.<efe> <efs>I will still feel this constant need of validation from everyone in my life.<efe> <es>These feelings don't stop and it makes it hard for me to get through every single day.<ee> <es>It's almost like everyday is unpredictable for me.<ee>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel your goals depend on your BPD symptoms
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eplq95
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Job at nonprofit focuses on preventing addiction and positive mental health. Can I say I was an addict?
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help-seeking
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Really like this position. It teaches people about different addictions and stopping people from going down the wrong path. Can I say I used, or what is a good way to say it, and what would I say as my reasoning for interest in addiction, or passion to help others?
She called around 10a or so yesterday. I called back at 2pm-ish. She hasn't called back. I'm really nervous I forgot to say my name when I called. I'm an idiot and also stumbled over my words for a second. What do you think? If I don't hear back, I'll probably call tomorrow? Uhhhhh
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brand21new
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2020-01-16 16:36:24
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>Job at nonprofit focuses on preventing addiction and positive mental health.<ee> <rs>Can I say I was an addict?<re> <es>Really like this position.<ee> <es>It teaches people about different addictions and stopping people from going down the wrong path.<ee> <rs>Can I say I used, or what is a good way to say it, and what would I say as my reasoning for interest in addiction, or passion to help others?<re> <es>She called around 10a or so yesterday.<ee> <es>I called back at 2pm-ish.<ee> <es>She hasn't called back.<ee> <efs>I'm really nervous I forgot to say my name when I called. <efe><rd>I'm an idiot and also stumbled over my words for a second.<re> <rs>What do you think? If I don't hear back, I'll probably call tomorrow?<re> Uhhhhh
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eqk61z
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I’m pretty stuck right now. This is dark. NSFW
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1a
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help-seeking
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I’ve fallen into this cycle of sling drugs twice a week. I go out, I get high, I get drunk, I buy coke. I’m not asleep until 7:30-8am. I know this isn’t good for me, built I’ve build a source of habit. And I know I need to kick it, as simple as that. But I don’t wanna call myself an addict because I want nothing to do with drugs until I drink. 2 beers and I’m in. Does anyone have any advice or tips on how to kick this shit habit. Thank you for listening. Thank you for your help
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yoyomascousinlittle
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2020-01-18 18:28:00
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selfhelp
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<es>I’ve fallen into this cycle of sling drugs twice a week.<ee> <es>I go out, I get high, I get drunk, I buy coke.<ee> <es>I’m not asleep until 7:30-8am.<ee> <es>I know this isn’t good for me, built I’ve build a source of habit.<ee> <es>And I know I need to kick it, as simple as that.<ee> <es>But I don’t wanna call myself an addict because I want nothing to do with drugs until I drink.<ee> <es>2 beers and I’m in.<ee> <rs>Does anyone have any advice or tips on how to kick this shit habit.<re> Thank you for listening. Thank you for your help
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How did X make you feel?
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the cycle of getting drunk and taking coke
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epucp5
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If any of you like to read I have an excellent book recommendation.
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0
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chitchat
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Facing Codependence by Pia Mellody. Not only are alot of us are codependent without realizing it, but we come in contact and build relationships with codependent people. I think this is something everyone should read.
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sglolita
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2020-01-17 03:00:45
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selfhelp
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Facing Codependence by Pia Mellody. Not only are alot of us are codependent without realizing it, but we come in contact and build relationships with codependent people. I think this is something everyone should read.
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eih2ie
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It’s a new year and after years I finally took action and spoke to my doctor.
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I just needed somewhere to express myself, I’m sorry if this isn’t 100% easy to understand.
For years I’ve been battling against mild anxiety, it’s been something I’ve been able to deal with and live with for the most part with little to no issues.
6 months ago, a woman I was previously in a relationship with had asked to rekindle things after she broke up with me the time before, saying that she was regrettable for the decisions she made etc.
I being naive took her back, after much heart ache, only to have her, after months of getting things back to good, two days after we start dating again she breaks up with me and never speaks to me again. Shortly after I heard from mutual friends that she did it on purpose.
Since that day, my mild anxiety which I’ve been able to live with has turned into what I’d call high level anxiety, not only that I’ve been struggling for 6 months to make friends, have new relationships due to my newly found relationship anxiety, and my trust issues. I’ve found myself having days when i can’t leave the house due to anxiety, I feel sad more often than not, my diet and gym regime have gone to shit and it’s just been an awful year.
So last week, I decided after years of considering it, to see someone and talk about my issues (I’ve seen therapists before). Anyhow, On Monday I was prescribed medication to treat my anxiety and depression and it was the hardest thing I’ve done, to break down in front of my doctor and feel embarrassed and less of a man, but I’m hoping that despite that, this year, and this new decade brings me a chance to live normally, love normally and to trust again, hopefully with less anxiety, and less overall stress.
I guess I’m just trying to say, as a man, it’s okay to feel embarrassed and scared to see someone, but you don’t have to, my doctor was more than understanding and it actually made me feel really safe.
Thanks for letting me vent, reddit fam. Be good this year to yourselves, we can do it together, much love.
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Dutchydtd
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2020-01-01 10:37:58
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Anxiety
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I just needed somewhere to express myself, I’m sorry if this isn’t 100% easy to understand. <es>For years I’ve been battling against mild anxiety, it’s been something I’ve been able to deal with and live with for the most part with little to no issues.<ee> <es>6 months ago, a woman I was previously in a relationship with had asked to rekindle things after she broke up with me the time before, saying that she was regrettable for the decisions she made etc.<ee> <es>I being naive took her back, after much heart ache, only to have her, after months of getting things back to good, two days after we start dating again she breaks up with me and never speaks to me again.<ee> <es>Shortly after I heard from mutual friends that she did it on purpose.<ee> <efs>Since that day, my mild anxiety which I’ve been able to live with has turned into what I’d call high level anxiety, not only that I’ve been struggling for 6 months to make friends, have new relationships due to my newly found relationship anxiety, and my trust issues.<efe> <efs>I’ve found myself having days when i can’t leave the house due to anxiety, I feel sad more often than not, my diet and gym regime have gone to shit and it’s just been an awful year.<efe> <es>So last week, I decided after years of considering it, to see someone and talk about my issues (I’ve seen therapists before).<ee> <rs>Anyhow, On Monday I was prescribed medication to treat my anxiety and depression and it was the hardest thing I’ve done, to break down in front of my doctor and feel embarrassed and less of a man, but I’m hoping that despite that, this year, and this new decade brings me a chance to live normally, love normally and to trust again, hopefully with less anxiety, and less overall stress.<re> I guess I’m just trying to say, as a man, it’s okay to feel embarrassed and scared to see someone, but you don’t have to, my doctor was more than understanding and it actually made me feel really safe. Thanks for letting me vent, reddit fam. Be good this year to yourselves, we can do it together, much love.
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epur0x
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What do yoh class as an alcoholic? At what stage would say a person has a problem with alcohol?
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help-seeking
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Hey so I posted in the alcoholism forum too and they showed me this page for friends and family that are affected by alcoholism.
My partner has been drinking heavily for a while now - he has always likes a drink but lately he will easily polish off a whole bottle of vodka or gin in one night. Since Friday/sat hes for through 6 bottles of vodka. And not small half size ones either.
He becomes a mean person when drunk, and it’s like he becomes a totally different person. He says horrible things, is depressing and we have had many a row where he’s said some really nasty things, I’ve left him and always seem to be persuaded to give it a do and etc etc. However this week has been worse as he’s not been at work so he’s pretty much drank the day away. At what point do you class people as an alcoholic? He certainly drinks way too much - a whole bottle of gin/vodka in a night is way too much in my opinion. He still drags himself to work the next morning yet doesn’t think he’s got problem - he comes straight in from work on a night and first thing he will do is have an alcoholic drink. And then proceed to get more drunk as the night goes on. This is every single night, and as above, more when he has time off work.
Any input greatly appreciated!
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DazedAndAmused2015
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2020-01-17 03:32:30
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<rs>What do yoh class as an alcoholic?<re> <rs>At what stage would say a person has a problem with alcohol?<re> Hey so I posted in the alcoholism forum too and they showed me this page for friends and family that are affected by alcoholism. <es>My partner has been drinking heavily for a while now - he has always likes a drink but lately he will easily polish off a whole bottle of vodka or gin in one night.<ee> <es>Since Friday/sat hes for through 6 bottles of vodka.<ee> <es>And not small half size ones either. <ee> <es>He becomes a mean person when drunk, and it’s like he becomes a totally different person.<ee> <es>He says horrible things, is depressing and we have had many a row where he’s said some really nasty things, I’ve left him and always seem to be persuaded to give it a do and etc etc.<ee> <es>However this week has been worse as he’s not been at work so he’s pretty much drank the day away.<ee> <rs>At what point do you class people as an alcoholic?<re> <es>He certainly drinks way too much - a whole bottle of gin/vodka in a night is way too much in my opinion.<ee> <es>He still drags himself to work the next morning yet doesn’t think he’s got problem - he comes straight in from work on a night and first thing he will do is have an alcoholic drink.<ee> <es>And then proceed to get more drunk as the night goes on.<ee> <es>This is every single night, and as above, more when he has time off work. <ee> <rs>Any input greatly appreciated!<re>
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How did X make you feel?
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your partner drinking heavily
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ejgr38
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Panic mode: On
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1b
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rant
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\*Delete if not allowed\*
So, I've been at this new job just shy of three months.
And the first month was great. They loved how good I was at a lot of things.
But now I'm focusing on details.
Let me back up. I work at a staffing agency. My job involves sending out on boarding paperwork, running background checks, scheduling drug screens, and then hiring them into the system once everything is completed. Part of hiring them in involves putting in peoples bank information for direct deposit.
I hired a person in, and put her bank information in wrong. I missed a number. When I hired her in, her file got double checked. They missed it too.
She got paid today, which is why we know something wasn't put in right.
So I'm over here, sitting at my desk, in a complete and utter panic because I've been trying so hard to do this job right (it's my first office job, they know it, and I told them I have PTSD), and it feels like every time I get back up on my feet i'm being kicked back down again.
Part of me is absolutely deathly terrified they're going to fire me for this. Part of me wants to pack up my desk and leave and never come back.
I literally hate that this is my life. That every little thing "triggers" me with this job.
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Toasty_kitty
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2020-01-03 15:19:01
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ptsd
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\*Delete if not allowed\* <es>So, I've been at this new job just shy of three months.<ee> <es>And the first month was great.<ee> <es>They loved how good I was at a lot of things.<ee> <es>But now I'm focusing on details. <ee> Let me back up. <es>I work at a staffing agency.<ee> <es>My job involves sending out on boarding paperwork, running background checks, scheduling drug screens, and then hiring them into the system once everything is completed.<ee> <es>Part of hiring them in involves putting in peoples bank information for direct deposit.<ee> <es>I hired a person in, and put her bank information in wrong.<ee> <es>I missed a number.<ee> <es>When I hired her in, her file got double checked.<ee> <es>They missed it too.<ee> <es>She got paid today, which is why we know something wasn't put in right.<ee> <es>So I'm over here, sitting at my desk, in a complete and utter panic because I've been trying so hard to do this job right (it's my first office job, they know it, and I told them I have PTSD).<ee> <efs>it feels like every time I get back up on my feet i'm being kicked back down again. <efe> <efs>Part of me is absolutely deathly terrified they're going to fire me for this.<efe> <efs>Part of me wants to pack up my desk and leave and never come back. <efe> <efs>I literally hate that this is my life.<efe> <efs>That every little thing "triggers" me with this job.<efe>
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are panicking about sending your mistake
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esm5ut
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Guidance
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help-seeking
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Does anyone have suggestions/recommendations for male vs female therapists for a 26f?
Ideas for different things to try other than "just" talk therapy and/or pills/drugs/acting out?? Let me know if you have any idea
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jessicarabbit93
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2020-01-23 01:54:14
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rapecounseling
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<rs>Does anyone have suggestions/recommendations for male vs female therapists for a 26f?<re> <rs>Ideas for different things to try other than "just" talk therapy and/or pills/drugs/acting out??<re> Let me know if you have any idea
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What happened that you want X ?
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suggestions for male vs female therapists
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Why are you wanting X ?
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ideas apart from therapy and drugs
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em6daz
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What to do about nightmares
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help-seeking
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I was in a physically abusive relationship as a teenager. My ex-would throw me around by the hair, choke me while screaming in my face and grab my head and slam it into the floor/wall/nearby hard surface. I didn't live with him but would often stay nights at his house to avoid stress at home.
I'd hide any marks and lie on his behalf about any that were seen.
It ended after a failed suicide attempt on my part that resulted in me being hospitalized. While on pain killers in the intensive care unit I told the social worker if I hadn't done it he would of. I don't know if how long it would have taken me to tell someone the truth otherwise. I got the support and help I needed to get out and find a more stable living situation. I've been out of the situation for almost 9 years and still have vivid intense nightmares every few months. Usually when I'm already stressed but sometimes it seems random. I've been through therapy and have been able to address and work through some of the trauma responses from the relationship (flinching at noises/movements, fearing men, ect.) But the nightmares persist.
Does anyone have any advice on how to make them stop or better? It's been 9 years and I've mostly moved on except the nightmares. They frustrate me and make me feel like he still has control over a fragment of my life. They also bring up memories I don't want to think about. Please let me know what I can do to make this better. I've tried changing the ending mentally when I wake up but that doesn't prevent them. I'm unable to control, change or wake up from the nightmares, it's more like watching a movie I can't shut off.
Any advice, suggestions or support would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!
(This is my first reddit post, please let me know if I need to make any changes to adhere to guidelines.)
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still_alife
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2020-01-09 07:27:18
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domesticviolence
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<es>I was in a physically abusive relationship as a teenager.<ee> <es>My ex-would throw me around by the hair, choke me while screaming in my face and grab my head and slam it into the floor/wall/nearby hard surface.<ee> <es>I didn't live with him but would often stay nights at his house to avoid stress at home. <ee> <es>I'd hide any marks and lie on his behalf about any that were seen. <ee> <es>It ended after a failed suicide attempt on my part that resulted in me being hospitalized.<ee> <es>While on pain killers in the intensive care unit I told the social worker if I hadn't done it he would of.<ee> <es>I don't know if how long it would have taken me to tell someone the truth otherwise.<ee> <es>I got the support and help I needed to get out and find a more stable living situation.<ee> <efs>I've been out of the situation for almost 9 years and still have vivid intense nightmares every few months.<efe> <efs>Usually when I'm already stressed but sometimes it seems random.<efe> <es>I've been through therapy and have been able to address and work through some of the trauma responses from the relationship (flinching at noises/movements, fearing men, ect.)<ee> <es>But the nightmares persist. <ee> <rs>Does anyone have any advice on how to make them stop or better?<re> <es>It's been 9 years and I've mostly moved on except the nightmares.<ee> <efs>They frustrate me and make me feel like he still has control over a fragment of my life.<efe> <efs>They also bring up memories I don't want to think about.<efe> <rs>Please let me know what I can do to make this better.<re> <es>I've tried changing the ending mentally when I wake up but that doesn't prevent them.<ee> <es>I'm unable to control, change or wake up from the nightmares, it's more like watching a movie I can't shut off.<ee> <rs>Any advice, suggestions or support would be greatly appreciated.<re> Thank you! (This is my first reddit post, please let me know if I need to make any changes to adhere to guidelines.)
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en3ae2
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I’ve Been Feeling Worthless and like my thoughts don’t matter
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help-seeking
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Hey everyone, I’ve recently been having thoughts of worthlessness, as in feeling like a disappointment, and feeling like my friends really only pretend to like me, can anyone help?
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SS_Utopia
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2020-01-11 05:17:00
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selfhelp
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<efs>Hey everyone, I’ve recently been having thoughts of worthlessness, as in feeling like a disappointment, and feeling like my friends really only pretend to like me.<efe> <rs>can anyone help?<re>
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worthless and disappointed
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what would help you not feel worthless
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epcrlo
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Only anxious when I'm alone?
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1a
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help-seeking
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I'm confident and can be rather outgoing aslong as I'm with atleast one other person, but as soon as I have to go to a public space alone, or even just walk outside while I'm by myself I get super anxious. Of course i have to do this daily and it really sucks because i get stress headaches from my anxiety. A good example of this is wether i have a friend in one of my classes or not, if i have even one person that i have talked to a few times in a class I can pretty much go and be fine even if I dont even talk to them the whole time, but if it's a big lecture class (100-300 at my Uni) and theres no one I know there I get super stressed out even though I dont have to engage even.
Is this like a co dependent behavior, and how would I go about getting over this? I pretty much am exposed to this situation every day when school is in session and it hasn't been getting better
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cntthinkofgoodusernm
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2020-01-16 02:27:47
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selfhelp
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<es>I'm confident and can be rather outgoing aslong as I'm with atleast one other person, but as soon as I have to go to a public space alone, or even just walk outside while I'm by myself I get super anxious.<ee> <efs>Of course i have to do this daily and it really sucks because i get stress headaches from my anxiety.<efe> <es>A good example of this is wether i have a friend in one of my classes or not, if i have even one person that i have talked to a few times in a class I can pretty much go and be fine even if I dont even talk to them the whole time, but if it's a big lecture class (100-300 at my Uni) and theres no one I know there I get super stressed out even though I dont have to engage even. <ee> <rs>Is this like a co dependent behavior, and how would I go about getting over this?<re> <es>I pretty much am exposed to this situation every day when school is in session and it hasn't been getting better<ee>
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eltwjg
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Family medicine MD here for advice
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help-seeking
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Hi y’all!
I’m a relatively new family doctor and have a question I’m hoping some of you can help guide me in.
For some background - I’m family medicine in a small town and I do a lot of mental health because, well. FM in a small town.
I grew up with ADHD, which was untreated until high school, and as a result, developed OCD, anxiety and panic (that’s basically under control now fwiw). I’m really passionate about mental health in primary care - part of the reason I did family medicine instead of psych is wanting to be on the front line - we see everyone!
The main reason I thought to post here is after listening to another parenting podcast to help with ADHD kids i thought something like maybe i should write a damn book with some actual practical advice since I actually have ADHD...
It occurred to me that I could probably find the perfect people to pick their brains about a patient who has me worried.
I have a middle aged guy in his who is a recovering alcoholic with lots of pain from an injury. He’s kind of an asshole and abrasive. But lucky for him I’m fluent in sarcasm and asshole and we’ve actually made great progress.
He has a crappy liver and has been labeled ‘noncompliant’ etc because he leaves the hospital because he doesn’t like lab draws, won’t get outpatient lab draws, won’t take the meds to make him poop, etc. I’ve been seeing him for a year now... and lord have mercy but I never thought I’d bond with a grumpy former alcoholic in his 50’s, but I have and I’ve put a LOT of effort into this guy. Somewhere along the way it occurred to me that there must be some trauma with needles, or something, because what person in their right mind who is barfing up buckets of blood refuses a blood transfusion because the person didn’t get the IV on the first try?!
So I pulled strings and got him a port (a doodad that sits under your skin and is easy to find, and helps with getting labs and/or giving meds) which is what helped him turn around from almost dying to moderately living. He has stayed sober, his wife comes to every visit and makes up for his gruffness by hugging and giving me chocolates and thanking me for taking time with him. (I promise they aren’t borderline... just grateful to be treated like people and his wife knows he’s an asshole too And that makes it harder for him to get care)
His labs are finally in a good place, pain is so/so, he’s still sober, and on the transplant list.
We’ve danced around his diagnosis of ‘bipolar’ and at the time he was too close to dying to be able to do anything other than live.
Last visit before he left I said something like ‘at some point we are going to have to address the elephant in the room and talk about your mental health. I feel like we’ve made so much progress and If there’s something like PTSD, depression or anxiety that we are ignoring, it’s going to make it harder to get your pain under control. I’d be a terrible doctor if I let us continue ignoring it.’
His whole demeanor changed. He went from laughing and relaxed to rigid and blank face.
He said something I’ll never forget “Doc, I can’t. I can’t ever tell you. I did something awful. I know I have PTSD... I get flashbacks that bring me to my knees. I can’t tell you. It would change what you thought of me and I can’t risk that”
The look on his face was heartbreaking. I don’t think I handled this well - I said something like ‘what you did in the past isn’t necessarily who you are today. No matter what, I want you to know that I’m comfortable taking care of who you are today’
Y’all. Did I mention I have a little anxiety? I do. I’m nervous about what this guy is going to say and I’ve been replaying this in my head.
I’m worried that my response ‘who you are today’ was wrong way to go because, well...what if he is still that person? I have no idea what happened. It’s not related to his injury - he’s discussed that.
Any advice? Or words of wisdom? I don’t want to make things worse. I’ve tried asking just about symptoms and/or offering him a therapist, but he won’t go again - he ‘already did that’
all of the training I’ve had has been “you can’t ignore the trauma” and I really think this is holding him back... but maybe like the ADHD advice of ‘buy a planner’ that we learn in need school, maybe we have it all wrong.
Thanks for taking the time to read through all this.
:)
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Lying_T-Rex
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2020-01-08 15:09:03
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ptsd
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Hi y’all! <rs>I’m a relatively new family doctor and have a question I’m hoping some of you can help guide me in. <re> <es>For some background - I’m family medicine in a small town and I do a lot of mental health because, well. FM in a small town. <ee> <es>I grew up with ADHD, which was untreated until high school, and as a result, developed OCD, anxiety and panic (that’s basically under control now fwiw).<ee> <es>I’m really passionate about mental health in primary care - part of the reason I did family medicine instead of psych is wanting to be on the front line - we see everyone! <ee> <es>The main reason I thought to post here is after listening to another parenting podcast to help with ADHD kids i thought something like maybe i should write a damn book with some actual practical advice since I actually have ADHD...<ee> <es>It occurred to me that I could probably find the perfect people to pick their brains about a patient who has me worried. <ee> <es>I have a middle aged guy in his who is a recovering alcoholic with lots of pain from an injury.<ee> <es>He’s kind of an asshole and abrasive.<ee> <es>But lucky for him I’m fluent in sarcasm and asshole and we’ve actually made great progress. <ee> <es>He has a crappy liver and has been labeled ‘noncompliant’ etc because he leaves the hospital because he doesn’t like lab draws, won’t get outpatient lab draws, won’t take the meds to make him poop, etc.<ee> <es>I’ve been seeing him for a year now... and lord have mercy but I never thought I’d bond with a grumpy former alcoholic in his 50’s, but I have and I’ve put a LOT of effort into this guy.<ee> <es>Somewhere along the way it occurred to me that there must be some trauma with needles, or something, because what person in their right mind who is barfing up buckets of blood refuses a blood transfusion because the person didn’t get the IV on the first try?!<ee> <es>So I pulled strings and got him a port (a doodad that sits under your skin and is easy to find, and helps with getting labs and/or giving meds) which is what helped him turn around from almost dying to moderately living.<ee> <es>He has stayed sober, his wife comes to every visit and makes up for his gruffness by hugging and giving me chocolates and thanking me for taking time with him.<ee> <es>(I promise they aren’t borderline... just grateful to be treated like people and his wife knows he’s an asshole too And that makes it harder for him to get care)<ee> <es>His labs are finally in a good place, pain is so/so, he’s still sober, and on the transplant list. <ee> <es>We’ve danced around his diagnosis of ‘bipolar’ and at the time he was too close to dying to be able to do anything other than live. <ee> <es>Last visit before he left I said something like ‘at some point we are going to have to address the elephant in the room and talk about your mental health.<ee> <es>I feel like we’ve made so much progress and If there’s something like PTSD, depression or anxiety that we are ignoring, it’s going to make it harder to get your pain under control.<ee> <es>I’d be a terrible doctor if I let us continue ignoring it.’ <ee> <es>His whole demeanor changed.<ee> <es>He went from laughing and relaxed to rigid and blank face.<ee> <es>He said something I’ll never forget “Doc, I can’t.<ee> <es>I can’t ever tell you.<ee> <es>I did something awful.<ee> <es>I know I have PTSD... I get flashbacks that bring me to my knees.<ee> <es>I can’t tell you.<ee> <es>It would change what you thought of me and I can’t risk that”<ee> <es>The look on his face was heartbreaking.<ee> <es>I don’t think I handled this well - I said something like ‘what you did in the past isn’t necessarily who you are today. No matter what, I want you to know that I’m comfortable taking care of who you are today’ <ee> Y’all. <efs>Did I mention I have a little anxiety?<efe> <efs>I do.<efe> <efs>I’m nervous about what this guy is going to say and I’ve been replaying this in my head. <efe> <efs>I’m worried that my response ‘who you are today’ was wrong way to go because, well...what if he is still that person?<efe> <es>I have no idea what happened.<ee> <es>It’s not related to his injury - he’s discussed that. <ee> <rs>Any advice?<re> <rs>Or words of wisdom?<re> <rs>I don’t want to make things worse.<re> <es>I’ve tried asking just about symptoms and/or offering him a therapist, but he won’t go again - he ‘already did that’ all of the training I’ve had has been “you can’t ignore the trauma” and I really think this is holding him back... but maybe like the ADHD advice of ‘buy a planner’ that we learn in need school, maybe we have it all wrong.<ee> Thanks for taking the time to read through all this. :)
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eid1qf
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I just relapsed.. after 19 days
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1a
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chitchat
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19 days was most definitely my longest streak for probably a year but oh well. Great start to 2020.
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Iyrebird
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2020-01-01 03:00:10
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selfharm
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<es>I just relapsed.. after 19 days<ee> <es>19 days was most definitely my longest streak for probably a year but oh well.<ee> Great start to 2020.
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what made you relapse
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How did X make you feel?
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not cutting yourself
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you relapsed again after 19 days
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eiu03r
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(Help) I was asked what it is like to have ADHD elsewhere on Reddit, it’s a good question and I said this
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chitchat
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Please critique and help me add to or refine my response. Or if you know of someone who has made a better one, point me that way so I can link it. I think it would be good to have an explanation worked out for these times (online or offline).
# The comment thread:
https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/eiltpu/instagram_on_new_years_day_oc/fct7hwh/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf
# My response:
That is a really great question. Honestly.
It’s a few things, and it isn’t fully the same for everyone. Largely because ADHD is often co-morbid with other issues.
Primarily, having ADHD is having a developmental disorder characterized by a severe executive function impairment.
One big issue is that an ADHD brain rarely delivers dopamine rewards for completing tasks. So making a list and crossing things off? Like eating dry toast for an ADHD brain.
Doing a repetitive task you have done many times before? Complete torture and boredom. If you ever start.
Going into a meeting and coming out with a full understanding of what happened... haaaard.
Many ADHD people, like myself, really have no sense of time. It’s one of the executive function impairments. I have zero sense of how fast or slow time is passing. For me boredom can be fast or slow, and excitement can be fast or slow. Put me in a room with no clock and give me a task, then come back a random amount of time later and ask me how long it’s been... I’ll be very wrong. An NT will be more likely to be right.
ADHD brains don’t reward you for doing a good job. They don’t usually reward you if praised. ADHD people at a job or school work will most likely get around to doing the task not because of the satisfaction of doing it, or to get praised for a good job, but instead because of a very suddenly impending due date and potential punishment for not finishing. Now yes, “everyone does that,” I agree... but with ADHD it’s **every time**.
ADHD is also ***not*** a deficit of attention. Or distractibility. ADHD brains are actually well known for hyper-focusing.
It’s more often improper attention. It’s often knowing what you **Should** and **need** to do, but not doing it and doing something else instead. The reward center of the brain is fucked. It doesn’t push you away from the wrong task and over to, or back to, the right one.
There is also a lot of impairment of working memory. So an ADHD person will miss meetings. You’ll say: “but everyone does that!” Yes, but with ADHD it’s not sometimes... it’s close enough to every time.
An ADHD person will call their spouse and say: “I’ll be 20 minutes late coming home... I’m going to stop and pick up dog food”, and then just drive home...almost every time.
An ADHD person will know they have a meeting first thing in the morning and yet still stay up on their phone researching the various different kinds of ground squirrels until 2AM because someone mentioned ground squirrels in a Reddit comment. Every time.
ADHD is your brain constantly seeking stimulation because the day to day tasks that give NT brains a companions reward don’t give you shit... but seeing **NEW** things on Reddit, or Wikipedia, are stimulating and provide that dopamine hit.
ADHD is like being a hyper-cube shaped air filter/scrubber trying to fit into a NT’s cylindrical style hole.
The whole world is set up to make you a fucking failure your whole life.
I’ll edit with more later.
Edit:
You’re a failure because:
* NTs decided work should start at 9AM everyday.
* NTs decided school should treat all kids exactly the same based on age, even though MRIs show ADHD brains have parts that mature at different times, and some parts seem to end up smaller and under developed. You are developing at a different rate, and in a different way, and different emotionally, from your classmates... but you are expected and graded on learning and acting the same.
* You become neglectful of friends because they are no longer new or interesting, and other things in life are.
* you act impulsively, and this upsets all the NTs who don’t understand why you would do or say **that**
* You can go from unemotional and not responding appropriately to over responding and over emotional ... this freaks normies out.
* you can get very attached and very interested in someone new... and then suddenly ghost when your brain no longer dons them new and stimulating
* you are always looking at your damn phone
* you are never listening
* you are always fucking up, and should just try harder... after all you *know* what you need to do. Just fo it.
* your brain is always seeking **new** stimulation. This may be satisfied by research, conflict, starting a new task or hobby. It rarely involves finishing anything.
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ravenchilde
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2020-01-02 05:32:31
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ADHD
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Please critique and help me add to or refine my response. Or if you know of someone who has made a better one, point me that way so I can link it. I think it would be good to have an explanation worked out for these times (online or offline). # The comment thread: https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/eiltpu/instagram_on_new_years_day_oc/fct7hwh/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf # My response: That is a really great question. Honestly. It’s a few things, and it isn’t fully the same for everyone. Largely because ADHD is often co-morbid with other issues. Primarily, having ADHD is having a developmental disorder characterized by a severe executive function impairment. One big issue is that an ADHD brain rarely delivers dopamine rewards for completing tasks. So making a list and crossing things off? Like eating dry toast for an ADHD brain. Doing a repetitive task you have done many times before? Complete torture and boredom. If you ever start. Going into a meeting and coming out with a full understanding of what happened... haaaard. Many ADHD people, like myself, really have no sense of time. It’s one of the executive function impairments. I have zero sense of how fast or slow time is passing. For me boredom can be fast or slow, and excitement can be fast or slow. Put me in a room with no clock and give me a task, then come back a random amount of time later and ask me how long it’s been... I’ll be very wrong. An NT will be more likely to be right. ADHD brains don’t reward you for doing a good job. They don’t usually reward you if praised. ADHD people at a job or school work will most likely get around to doing the task not because of the satisfaction of doing it, or to get praised for a good job, but instead because of a very suddenly impending due date and potential punishment for not finishing. Now yes, “everyone does that,” I agree... but with ADHD it’s **every time**. ADHD is also ***not*** a deficit of attention. Or distractibility. ADHD brains are actually well known for hyper-focusing. It’s more often improper attention. It’s often knowing what you **Should** and **need** to do, but not doing it and doing something else instead. The reward center of the brain is fucked. It doesn’t push you away from the wrong task and over to, or back to, the right one. There is also a lot of impairment of working memory. So an ADHD person will miss meetings. You’ll say: “but everyone does that!” Yes, but with ADHD it’s not sometimes... it’s close enough to every time. An ADHD person will call their spouse and say: “I’ll be 20 minutes late coming home... I’m going to stop and pick up dog food”, and then just drive home...almost every time. An ADHD person will know they have a meeting first thing in the morning and yet still stay up on their phone researching the various different kinds of ground squirrels until 2AM because someone mentioned ground squirrels in a Reddit comment. Every time. ADHD is your brain constantly seeking stimulation because the day to day tasks that give NT brains a companions reward don’t give you shit... but seeing **NEW** things on Reddit, or Wikipedia, are stimulating and provide that dopamine hit. ADHD is like being a hyper-cube shaped air filter/scrubber trying to fit into a NT’s cylindrical style hole. The whole world is set up to make you a fucking failure your whole life. I’ll edit with more later. Edit: You’re a failure because: * NTs decided work should start at 9AM everyday. * NTs decided school should treat all kids exactly the same based on age, even though MRIs show ADHD brains have parts that mature at different times, and some parts seem to end up smaller and under developed. You are developing at a different rate, and in a different way, and different emotionally, from your classmates... but you are expected and graded on learning and acting the same. * You become neglectful of friends because they are no longer new or interesting, and other things in life are. * you act impulsively, and this upsets all the NTs who don’t understand why you would do or say **that** * You can go from unemotional and not responding appropriately to over responding and over emotional ... this freaks normies out. * you can get very attached and very interested in someone new... and then suddenly ghost when your brain no longer dons them new and stimulating * you are always looking at your damn phone * you are never listening * you are always fucking up, and should just try harder... after all you *know* what you need to do. Just fo it. * your brain is always seeking **new** stimulation. This may be satisfied by research, conflict, starting a new task or hobby. It rarely involves finishing anything.
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eldpgf
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pregablin dosing for CT
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help-seeking
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I'm hoping to CT a medium level opioid addiction. I have some xanax and also some pregablin (150mgs and a few 300mgs). I've taken pregablin before but not for a while so shouldn't have any tolerance.
I know pregablin is supposed to help WDs but now much? When i've taken it previously 150mg makes me a bit dopey and on 300mg I'm functional (sort of) but definitely stoned.
Should I start on day 1 and take just 300mg, less than that, or as much as needed to keep myself blissfully stoned to get through the first few days.
Others who have used it in CT without a pregablin tolerance, how much did you use and for how long? Also, can you OD on pregablin? I see from googling max prescribed dose is usually 300mg a day, but up to 600mg per day has been studied. Is there a bigger CNS depressant risk if mixed with xanax - I can't imagine needing more than 2 or 3mg per day of that.
Any advice much appreciated
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homesickalien_adf
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2020-01-07 16:23:17
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OpiatesRecovery
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<es>I'm hoping to CT a medium level opioid addiction.<ee> <es>I have some xanax and also some pregablin (150mgs and a few 300mgs).<ee> <es>I've taken pregablin before but not for a while so shouldn't have any tolerance.<ee> <rs>I know pregablin is supposed to help WDs but now much?<re> <efs>When i've taken it previously 150mg makes me a bit dopey and on 300mg I'm functional (sort of) but definitely stoned.<efe> <rs>Should I start on day 1 and take just 300mg, less than that, or as much as needed to keep myself blissfully stoned to get through the first few days.<re> <rs>Others who have used it in CT without a pregablin tolerance, how much did you use and for how long? Also, can you OD on pregablin?<re> <es>I see from googling max prescribed dose is usually 300mg a day, but up to 600mg per day has been studied.<ee> <rs>Is there a bigger CNS depressant risk if mixed with xanax - I can't imagine needing more than 2 or 3mg per day of that.<re> <rs>Any advice much appreciated<re>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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your opiod addiction
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eq22a9
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Already planning on drinking tonight
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1a
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rant
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Already planning on drinking tonight
I am not sure if I could be talked out of this, but I would like to try. I hope y’all are having a great day. Thank you.
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AintSoHard2Recognize
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2020-01-17 15:47:38
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alcoholicsanonymous
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<es>Already planning on drinking tonight<ee> <es>I am not sure if I could be talked out of this, but I would like to try.<ee> I hope y’all are having a great day. Thank you.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you are planning to drink
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How did X make you feel?
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drinking
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you are planning to drink again
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ek9wu1
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Distressed
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1a
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rant
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I feel like this is a little too embarrassing to say, and I've never liked speaking about my feelings to anyone personally so I've always reached out on public platforms where no one knows me, vice versa.
Honestly, I don't even know what's wrong with me. I've been upset everyday, crying and feeling terrible for the past few weeks and it came so suddenly and caught me so off guard. I couldn't speak to anyone for days and doing anything made me feel exhausted, even laying in bed and crying just made me feel bad bc I wasn't doing anything.
I thought it'd last a day or two, blame it on teenage hormones or school reopening or even because a year passed by so suddenly but with each passing day I just feel worse and worse. Speaking to most people exchausts me, doing anything at all exchaust me and I cry all the time for no reason, even in public. Even when I'm with my friends I get hit by this sudden sadness for absolutely no reason at all.
I'm incapable of being honest with myself and others, and I find it hard to speak to people about my feelings. I'm terrified of spiralling down this hole again and losing all hope, that thought just makes me so scared and I'm trying not to drop but it's hard for me not to and I might just fuck everything up this year, if I even survive this year.
I don't like associating myself with sadness or anything like that so I'll just vent this all out here, where no one I know can see. It feels good to let it out and I hope I'll be better in awhile but I'm already seeing signs of me screwing everything up, and I'm just so tired. It's tiring to be upset all the time.
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Hxthshiz
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2020-01-05 07:34:48
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sad
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<es>I feel like this is a little too embarrassing to say, and I've never liked speaking about my feelings to anyone personally so I've always reached out on public platforms where no one knows me, vice versa.<ee> <es>Honestly, I don't even know what's wrong with me.<ee> <efs>I've been upset everyday, crying and feeling terrible for the past few weeks and it came so suddenly and caught me so off guard.<efe> <efs>I couldn't speak to anyone for days and doing anything made me feel exhausted, even laying in bed and crying just made me feel bad bc I wasn't doing anything.<efe> <es>I thought it'd last a day or two, blame it on teenage hormones or school reopening or even because a year passed by so suddenly but with each passing day I just feel worse and worse.<ee> <es>Speaking to most people exchausts me, doing anything at all exchaust me and I cry all the time for no reason, even in public.<ee> <es>Even when I'm with my friends I get hit by this sudden sadness for absolutely no reason at all.<ee> <es>I'm incapable of being honest with myself and others, and I find it hard to speak to people about my feelings.<ee> <efs>I'm terrified of spiralling down this hole again and losing all hope, that thought just makes me so scared and I'm trying not to drop but it's hard for me not to and I might just fuck everything up this year, if I even survive this year.<efe> <es>I don't like associating myself with sadness or anything like that so I'll just vent this all out here, where no one I know can see.<ee> <efs>It feels good to let it out and I hope I'll be better in awhile but I'm already seeing signs of me screwing everything up, and I'm just so tired.<efe> <efs>It's tiring to be upset all the time.<efe>
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you sudden bouts of sadness
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ei7n4m
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To my new hopeful friend on the other side of the country.
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0
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chitchat
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I saw your post on this subreddit. I saw that you're alone like me. I hear that you wanted someone. I reached out. Just by doing that its helped me. I'm hoping it helps you too. We have a surprisingly amount of interests in common. Very different backgrounds, but that's ok. I hope you see this. I hope that talking helps. You've helped me more than you know. Dont give up. I'm here for you. Just as I hope you will be there for me if I need it. 12 hour shifts suck, but we can do it.
Weve got this girl 🙂
Your new hopeful friend from the other side of the country.
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Andreal-ee
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2019-12-31 19:34:01
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depression
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I saw your post on this subreddit. <es>I saw that you're alone like me.<ee> I hear that you wanted someone. <efs>I reached out.<efe> <efs>Just by doing that its helped me.<efe> <rs>I'm hoping it helps you too.<re> We have a surprisingly amount of interests in common. Very different backgrounds, but that's ok. I hope you see this. I hope that talking helps. You've helped me more than you know. Dont give up. I'm here for you. <rs>Just as I hope you will be there for me if I need it.<re> 12 hour shifts suck, but we can do it. Weve got this girl 🙂 Your new hopeful friend from the other side of the country.
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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why you feel alone
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How did X make you feel?
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being alone
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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what would help you and her
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eo1udh
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Martial rape? Coercion?
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1b
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help-seeking
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After much research and reflection I can finally admit I am in a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship. In my journey I've come across some things that make me feel I may also be victim of sexual coercion, it's hard for me to use the term rape, that seems like such a strong word to describe an act I'm not sure of. Keep in mind I've only recently, in the past six nonths or so, realized I've been abused for most of my relationship (26 yrs).
My husband gropes, grabs, and fondles me at times I feel are inappropriate. If I pull away an dart my eyes around the room he says the kids aren't paying attention or makes sure he is between me and them to block their view of him grabbing my breast, between my legs or butt. We have 2 teenage sons and a daughter. He will grab my butt in public and less often but sometimes my breast. He knows it makes me uncomfortable but his words are-you're just so hot I can't help it. I've asked for a divorce three times over the course of 5 years, (not directly due to the sexual stuff but because of how he treats me) but we are still together. I plan to leave as soon as I am financially able. The past year I have lost all interest in having a sexual relationship with him. Despite knowing this he continues to fondle me. It has also escalated to intercourse. I have not initiated sex in over a year. Though we pretty much do have it anywhere from twice a week to once every other week. The scenario is alsways the same. Three to fours days after we last had sex he starts the groping which is my indication that it's 'time'. I avoid undressing in front of him. I avoid showering when we are home alone because he will barge in the bathroom and gawk at me in the shower if the kids aren't home, which results in him sitting on the bed expectantly when I am done. If I try to get out and dress without acknowledging his desire he says, what are you doing? We didn't have sex yet. Other times he waits in the bathroom til I can't stall any longer and get out of the shower then he steers me or motions to the bed and says let's get this over with. He has even said, I know you don't want to do this so let's hurry up and do it. All these scenarios end in me silently going to the bed, and giving in to keep the peace. I know I can clearly say no but that leads to his other strategy. When I do say no or indicate I am not interested he gets grumpy, pouts, ignores me, or is an outright jerk. He can use some or all of those everytime. The severity and length of this can last days til I finally give in just to bring some peace back to the house. I finally called him out on his behaviour recently and it caused a huge argument. I told him how he acts when he doesn't get sex at least every three days. He said of course he gets grumpy and I just have to deal with it, it's his feelings and he can't help it. I told him he can feel grumpy but it doesn't give him the right to be a dick to me. He's choosing to punish me and that's manipulation. That seemed to connect. He was significantly less of a jerk the rest of the day but later that evening, while coming out of the bathroom, I found myself being steered to the bed. I was so dumbfounded but I went along with it since the kids had heard part of the argument from that morning and I didn't want to fight again and figured, well, at the least this gets me off the hook for three days. Nope, the next morning he comes to the guest room (I moved out of our room in August) gets in bed with me and starts poking me in the back with...you know. Then it happens again. I have no interest in him sexually anymore. He knows I avoid being undressed to any degree in front of him. He said if I don't have sex with him he's gonna have to get on some app and get it that way if I don't do it with him. (Not that it would bother me, I wish he would, then maybe he'd stop making me have sex or punishing me when I don't.) He has said on more than one occasion, I know you don't want to do this so let's get it over with. I typically just lay there and wait for it to be over. I don't even touch him.
My questions are, am I being raped? Coerced? Is the fact that he says I know you don't want to, so let's get it over with his admission he knows he doesn't have consent? It physically makes me nauseous to think I've been repeatedly raped for almost a year now. How did I let this happen?
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robinsparkles506
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2020-01-13 09:18:53
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<es>After much research and reflection I can finally admit I am in a verbally and emotionally abusive relationship.<ee> <es>In my journey I've come across some things that make me feel I may also be victim of sexual coercion, it's hard for me to use the term rape, that seems like such a strong word to describe an act I'm not sure of.<ee> <es>Keep in mind I've only recently, in the past six nonths or so, realized I've been abused for most of my relationship (26 yrs). <ee> <es>My husband gropes, grabs, and fondles me at times I feel are inappropriate.<ee> <es>If I pull away an dart my eyes around the room he says the kids aren't paying attention or makes sure he is between me and them to block their view of him grabbing my breast, between my legs or butt.<ee> <es>We have 2 teenage sons and a daughter.<ee> <es>He will grab my butt in public and less often but sometimes my breast.<ee> <efs>He knows it makes me uncomfortable but his words are-you're just so hot I can't help it.<efe> <es>I've asked for a divorce three times over the course of 5 years, (not directly due to the sexual stuff but because of how he treats me) but we are still together.<ee> <es>I plan to leave as soon as I am financially able.<ee> <es>The past year I have lost all interest in having a sexual relationship with him.<ee> <es>Despite knowing this he continues to fondle me.<ee> <es>It has also escalated to intercourse.<ee> <es>I have not initiated sex in over a year.<ee> <es>Though we pretty much do have it anywhere from twice a week to once every other week.<ee> <es>The scenario is alsways the same.<ee> <es>Three to fours days after we last had sex he starts the groping which is my indication that it's 'time'.<ee> <es>I avoid undressing in front of him.<ee> <es>I avoid showering when we are home alone because he will barge in the bathroom and gawk at me in the shower if the kids aren't home, which results in him sitting on the bed expectantly when I am done.<ee> <es>If I try to get out and dress without acknowledging his desire he says, what are you doing?<ee> <es>We didn't have sex yet. <ee><es>Other times he waits in the bathroom til I can't stall any longer and get out of the shower then he steers me or motions to the bed and says let's get this over with.<ee> <es>He has even said, I know you don't want to do this so let's hurry up and do it.<ee> <es>All these scenarios end in me silently going to the bed, and giving in to keep the peace.<ee> <es>I know I can clearly say no but that leads to his other strategy.<ee> <es>When I do say no or indicate I am not interested he gets grumpy, pouts, ignores me, or is an outright jerk.<ee> <es>He can use some or all of those everytime.<ee> <es>The severity and length of this can last days til I finally give in just to bring some peace back to the house.<ee> <es>I finally called him out on his behaviour recently and it caused a huge argument.<ee> <es>I told him how he acts when he doesn't get sex at least every three days.<ee> <es>He said of course he gets grumpy and I just have to deal with it, it's his feelings and he can't help it.<ee> <es>I told him he can feel grumpy but it doesn't give him the right to be a dick to me. <ee><es>He's choosing to punish me and that's manipulation.<ee> <es>That seemed to connect.<ee> <es>He was significantly less of a jerk the rest of the day but later that evening, while coming out of the bathroom, I found myself being steered to the bed.<ee> <es>I was so dumbfounded but I went along with it since the kids had heard part of the argument from that morning and I didn't want to fight again and figured, well, at the least this gets me off the hook for three days.<ee> <es>Nope, the next morning he comes to the guest room (I moved out of our room in August) gets in bed with me and starts poking me in the back with...you know.<ee> <es>Then it happens again.<ee> <efs>I have no interest in him sexually anymore.<efe> <es>He knows I avoid being undressed to any degree in front of him.<ee> <es>He said if I don't have sex with him he's gonna have to get on some app and get it that way if I don't do it with him.<ee> <es>(Not that it would bother me, I wish he would, then maybe he'd stop making me have sex or punishing me when I don't.)<ee> <es>He has said on more than one occasion, I know you don't want to do this so let's get it over with.<ee> <es>I typically just lay there and wait for it to be over.<ee> <es>I don't even touch him. <ee> <rs>My questions are, am I being raped?<re> <rs>Coerced?<re> <rs>Is the fact that he says I know you don't want to, so let's get it over with his admission he knows he doesn't have consent?<re> <efs>It physically makes me nauseous to think I've been repeatedly raped for almost a year now.<efe> <es>How did I let this happen?<ee>
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emd4zb
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Please help. need moral support
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help-seeking
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Not going too into detail but I need support, I just turned 24 and I’ve had an on and off opiate problem since I was 19 and recently I’ve been using for a couple months in a row with a Few detoxes in between but as of now this is the worst it has ever been consistency wise but for the last 2 weeks I’ve been trying to kick it, going 3 days, 2 days then 2 days again, every time I’m a couple days into withdrawal I lose it and relapse, I recently told my parents about it which was one of the hardest things for me to do but they’re supporting me through it, they just don’t know anything about it, I snort or plug, lately I’ve been plugging I’m planing on going all the way this time and quitting, I just need some moral support and tips and tricks for the physical and mental aspects from anyone experienced in this , I’ve been through withdrawals so many times but this is the most trouble I’ve ever had trying to kick this, again please help, I would love to have someone to talk to about this to help me get over and through this. If anyone could talk to me personally on the phone or chat I would greatly appreciate it. I’m super in need of moral support more than anything. I want to beat this so bad.
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Ill-Plenty
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2020-01-09 17:47:21
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OpiatesRecovery
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<rs>Not going too into detail but I need support.<re> <es>I just turned 24 and I’ve had an on and off opiate problem since I was 19 and recently I’ve been using for a couple months in a row with a Few detoxes in between.<ee> <es>but as of now this is the worst it has ever been consistency wise.<ee> <es>but for the last 2 weeks I’ve been trying to kick it, going 3 days, 2 days then 2 days again, every time I’m a couple days into withdrawal I lose it and relapse.<ee <es>I recently told my parents about it which was one of the hardest things for me to do but they’re supporting me through it, they just don’t know anything about it.<ee> <es>I snort or plug.<ee> <es>lately I’ve been plugging I’m planing on going all the way this time and quitting.<ee> <rs>I just need some moral support and tips and tricks for the physical and mental aspects from anyone experienced in this .<re> <es>I’ve been through withdrawals so many times but this is the most trouble I’ve ever had trying to kick this, again please help.<ee> <rs>I would love to have someone to talk to about this to help me get over and through this. <re> <rs>If anyone could talk to me personally on the phone or chat I would greatly appreciate it.<re> <rs>I’m super in need of moral support more than anything.<re> <rs>I want to beat this so bad.<re>
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How did X make you feel?
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being off the opiates
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eib3e4
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At this point just genuinely curious what sort of shit 2020 throws my way
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rant
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It's actually funny. I used to end every previous year with "Okay, that was bad, but surely it can't get much worse!! You can only go up from rock bottom!1!!11!", only to get fucked in the most unimaginable ways by the next year, to the point where I've mostly dissociated from my own existence and it's nothing more than a bad fucking movie.
I absolutely can't wait to see how the shit hits the fan again in 2020. The new endlessly creative ways fate comes up with to fuck me up never cease to amaze me, and life has yet to fail in exceeding my expectations!
So what will it be this time? Homelessness? Another chronic illness? Or perhaps my family finally disowns me?
Stay tuned!
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RigelAchromatic
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2020-01-01 00:07:12
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depression
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It's actually funny. <es>I used to end every previous year with "Okay, that was bad, but surely it can't get much worse!! You can only go up from rock bottom!1!!11!", only to get fucked in the most unimaginable ways by the next year, to the point where I've mostly dissociated from my own existence and it's nothing more than a bad fucking movie.<ee> I absolutely can't wait to see how the shit hits the fan again in 2020. <es>The new endlessly creative ways fate comes up with to fuck me up never cease to amaze me, and life has yet to fail in exceeding my expectations! <ee> So what will it be this time? Homelessness? <es>Another chronic illness?<ee> Or perhaps my family finally disowns me? Stay tuned!
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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the past year
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you have had a bad year
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f07xs3
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Anxious about dating again
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1b
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rant
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I am unsure if men are allowed to post here, I’m sorry if this is the case... I’m afraid of being made fun of but I need to get this off my chest. I just feel deeply ashamed of the way I lost my virginity.
I was only 15. I met a girl (17) through social media and after only a few days of messaging she asked if I wanted to be in a relationship. As someone who was bullied, had low self esteem and had never been in a relationship I accepted ecstatically. After the honey moon phase of the relationship things started to go downhill quickly. I realized she was very manipulative and would scream at me if I chose to spend time with my family over being on the phone with her. I was also suicidal at this point in time and would usually console in her when I thought about offing myself only to be met with responses like “You’re just selfish” instead of comfort. I chalked this mistreatment down to tension from being unable to see each other in person. Out of desperation to keep the relationship going I took the blame for almost everything. After dating for about a year and a half my grandparents drove me up to see her in Indiana for prom (I live in North Carolina, so it was a good 11 hour drive).
I am transgender and had said that I didn’t want to have any physical relations until I was 18 and had had a mastectomy. In response to this she purposefully made me feel like if I didn’t let her touch me then I wasn’t a real man. I was incredibly uncomfortable with the idea of being penetrated but she did it anyway. I remember it hurting, and that it was made 10x worse by the fact that I happened to be having my menstrual cycle. She also made me take off my shirt, touched my breasts and degraded me for things that made me super dysphoric, like my height (I’m 5’2 she was 5’7). I faked an orgasm because I so badly wanted it to be over with. After she fell asleep, I went and took an hour long shower in an attempt to feel not so dirty. I also cried and ate half a cake. About a month after that encounter I finally grew a backbone a broke it off.
I still feel like garbage. The thought of dating again gives me anxiety, and I shower constantly because I can’t ever stop feeling disgusting. She made me feel like I was a girl, she mocked my deteriorating mental health and she took advantage of me.
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Allons-Yeet
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2020-02-07 08:59:22
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<efs>I am unsure if men are allowed to post here, I’m sorry if this is the case... I’m afraid of being made fun of but I need to get this off my chest.<efe> <efs>I just feel deeply ashamed of the way I lost my virginity. <efe> <es>I was only 15.<ee> <es>I met a girl (17) through social media and after only a few days of messaging she asked if I wanted to be in a relationship.<ee> <es>As someone who was bullied, had low self esteem and had never been in a relationship I accepted ecstatically.<ee> <es>After the honey moon phase of the relationship things started to go downhill quickly.<ee> <es>I realized she was very manipulative and would scream at me if I chose to spend time with my family over being on the phone with her.<ee> <es>I was also suicidal at this point in time and would usually console in her when I thought about offing myself only to be met with responses like “You’re just selfish” instead of comfort.<ee> <es>I chalked this mistreatment down to tension from being unable to see each other in person.<ee> <es>Out of desperation to keep the relationship going I took the blame for almost everything.<ee> <es>After dating for about a year and a half my grandparents drove me up to see her in Indiana for prom (I live in North Carolina, so it was a good 11 hour drive).<ee> <es>I am transgender and had said that I didn’t want to have any physical relations until I was 18 and had had a mastectomy.<ee> <es>In response to this she purposefully made me feel like if I didn’t let her touch me then I wasn’t a real man.<ee> <es>I was incredibly uncomfortable with the idea of being penetrated but she did it anyway.<ee> <es>I remember it hurting, and that it was made 10x worse by the fact that I happened to be having my menstrual cycle.<ee> <es>She also made me take off my shirt, touched my breasts and degraded me for things that made me super dysphoric, like my height (I’m 5’2 she was 5’7).<ee> <es>I faked an orgasm because I so badly wanted it to be over with.<ee> <es>After she fell asleep, I went and took an hour long shower in an attempt to feel not so dirty.<ee> <es>I also cried and ate half a cake.<ee> <es>About a month after that encounter I finally grew a backbone a broke it off. <ee> <efs>I still feel like garbage.<efe> <efs>The thought of dating again gives me anxiety, and I shower constantly because I can’t ever stop feeling disgusting.<efe> <es>She made me feel like I was a girl, she mocked my deteriorating mental health and she took advantage of me.<ee>
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you feel anxious on dating again
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ezj24x
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Why Would A Woman Choose Abuse?
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chitchat
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RelationshipCandy
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2020-02-05 23:51:38
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domesticviolence
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Can you tell me what happened? You can be as specific as you like.
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random
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epsxi5
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Was this rape, sexual assault, or nothing? Please help :(
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1b
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help-seeking
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I can’t tell if I’m in denial or what. A while ago, I was at my local park alone until this man came up to me and started chatting. We talked about nature being relaxing and he said he could show me a cool overlook. I followed him when he shoved me against a tree and choked me with one hand while groping me with the other. He later shoved my pants down and grabbed my crotch and fingered me. Soon he started to force his penis into my mouth for a blowjob, but I didn’t reciprocate or do anything. After that I don’t really remember much/it was a blur. Is that normal to forget important details? Will I ever remember? I just know he left me there in the park. I don’t know who he is and I never told anyone because I tell myself it’s not that big of a deal, no one will believe me, and it’s too much of trouble to even go forward. What happened to me. I’m not sure why I want a label, but it would help with accepting and moving on from it.
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copaceticanesthetic
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2020-01-17 01:06:35
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rapecounseling
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<rs>Was this rape, sexual assault, or nothing?<re> <es>I can’t tell if I’m in denial or what.<ee> <es>A while ago, I was at my local park alone until this man came up to me and started chatting.<ee> <es>We talked about nature being relaxing and he said he could show me a cool overlook.<ee> <es>I followed him when he shoved me against a tree and choked me with one hand while groping me with the other.<ee> <es>He later shoved my pants down and grabbed my crotch and fingered me.<ee> <es>Soon he started to force his penis into my mouth for a blowjob, but I didn’t reciprocate or do anything.<ee> <es>After that I don’t really remember much/it was a blur.<ee> <rs>Is that normal to forget important details?<re> <rs>Will I ever remember?<re> <es>I just know he left me there in the park.<ee> <es>I don’t know who he is and I never told anyone because I tell myself it’s not that big of a deal, no one will believe me, and it’s too much of trouble to even go forward.<ee> <rs>What happened to me.<re> <rs>I’m not sure why I want a label, but it would help with accepting and moving on from it.<re>
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the incident at the park
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f4skt3
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I can't express it
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1a
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help-seeking
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Despite knowing them, I never use swear words out loud (even when I'm mad).
Every time I feel mad, I inflict bruises on my arms, since I'm not allowed to release my anger on anything else.
Help?
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Nanami_is_best_grill
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2020-02-16 16:02:40
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Anger
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Despite knowing them, I never use swear words out loud (even when I'm mad). <es>Every time I feel mad, I inflict bruises on my arms, since I'm not allowed to release my anger on anything else.<ee> Help?
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why you can't release the anger in some other way
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How did X make you feel?
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all the anger
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you aren't able to release your anger
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evvznd
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Unclear if it was rape
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help-seeking
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I don’t feel like I was raped, but it was also really problematic. I was very intoxicated, he was not. I told him beforehand that I didn’t want to do anything sexual. About 30 min later he started groping me and I didn’t like it but I didn’t say no. He started doing sexual things, and I was drunk and kinda went with it. I was hesitant to have sex, but I felt like he was pressuring me by acting sexual. It hurt and I said it out loud, but he didn’t stop. He covered my mouth with his hand to quiet me and kept going. It felt violating.
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redpanda1703
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2020-01-30 00:06:35
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rapecounseling
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<efs>I don’t feel like I was raped, but it was also really problematic.<efe> <es>I was very intoxicated, he was not.<ee> <es>I told him beforehand that I didn’t want to do anything sexual.<ee> <es>About 30 min later he started groping me and I didn’t like it but I didn’t say no.<ee> <es>He started doing sexual things, and I was drunk and kinda went with it.<ee> <es>I was hesitant to have sex, but I felt like he was pressuring me by acting sexual.<ee> <es>It hurt and I said it out loud, but he didn’t stop.<ee> <es>He covered my mouth with his hand to quiet me and kept going.<ee> <efs>It felt violating.<efe>
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Can you elaborate more on X ?
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how it felt problematic
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What do you need help with now that X?
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you feel violated
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ez97p2
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Made a few mistakes
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1b
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rant
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Tl;dr went public with a relationship with a girl who has an ex abuser, and she pretty immediately moved back in with him and now it’s real weird, and I think it was a big mistake.
I currently have plane tickets to go see her, and she wants me to. Gonna offer to move her out again, and make sure baby daddy isn’t gonna do anything that’ll get someone killed. But I also can’t do this much longer. Can’t eat, can’t sleep, I’ve shut off from stress. I can’t keep playing emotional support boyfriend. I can be friends, I can always offer to help her out, and if she’s ready, I’ll help her leave. But I don’t think she’ll let me if I wasn’t. So idk. So tired. I don’t want to be the crutch in their relationship. It’s gross. He’s gross. And I’m coping with what she’s doing because I understand it but it’s really hard to watch someone make plans with you while they sabotage themselves, and run into a situation that become imminently more dangerous. Theyre kinda like children on a playground. And I’m losing it. I really really care about her, and I don’t want to abandon her. But I also really really don’t want to get stabbed.
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2020-02-05 13:01:25
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<es>Tl;dr went public with a relationship with a girl who has an ex abuser, and she pretty immediately moved back in with him and now it’s real weird, and I think it was a big mistake.<ee> <es>I currently have plane tickets to go see her, and she wants me to.<ee> <es>Gonna offer to move her out again, and make sure baby daddy isn’t gonna do anything that’ll get someone killed.<ee> <efs>But I also can’t do this much longer.<efe> <efs>Can’t eat, can’t sleep, I’ve shut off from stress.<efe> <es>I can’t keep playing emotional support boyfriend.<ee> <es>I can be friends, I can always offer to help her out, and if she’s ready, I’ll help her leave.<ee> <es>But I don’t think she’ll let me if I wasn’t.<ee> <es>So idk.<ee> <efs>So tired.<efe> <rs>I don’t want to be the crutch in their relationship.<re> <efs>It’s gross.<efe> <efs>He’s gross.<efe> <es>And I’m coping with what she’s doing because I understand it but it’s really hard to watch someone make plans with you while they sabotage themselves, and run into a situation that become imminently more dangerous.<ee> <es>Theyre kinda like children on a playground.<ee> <efs>And I’m losing it.<efe> <rs>I really really care about her, and I don’t want to abandon her.<re> <rs>But I also really really don’t want to get stabbed.<re>
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